Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
I think that is correct. Because thats where God is having me go on my own. But thank your for more confirmation in strange ways. Still struggle with the urges but yes. Im finding getting into the word. Singing a verse of a song from service this morning. Im trying to not put up resistance and where any is shown within me I am doing my best to address and repair those portions of me. With Gods help of course.
Still ain't easy but I know His way is better. Thank you Fren ❤️
You're welcome Fren. God bless you too!
Glad to be of help and God works in mysterious ways. Our battles make us stronger in the Lord and we always live in gratitude. Even bad things can turn into good. Sometimes we just need to surrender and ask God, "What is it that you want me to learn from this thing I'm going through right now?"