Gotta get this off my chest....
So my dad died this thanksgiving. Respiratory failure. He was a hard line Republican, big trump fan, and retired from the usaf, but decided that he should stay in his mountain home with copd and not go to lower altitudes. It's kind of a miracle he lasted this long, but I wanted him to see so much more from me. That said, it was quick and probably painless, according to the coroner at least.
I'll be in CO for a few months at least sorting out his affairs. Then... Well, we will see.
2025 has been a bit of a shit year for me tbh personally. My mom threatened suicide at least once, my last pet died, my wife's dad had multiple heart attacks and though alive is still not 100% right, my own health went in a tailspin and my wife's seems to be doing a bit shit too, and I haven't been able to find work for the entire year. Those are just the highlights, as it feels like shit keeps hitting the fan for me. Now this.
Feels like every 4 years some new fresh form of hell gets unlocked. 4 years ago my first wife died suddenly in every meaning of that term. Four years before that, my house went up in flames. Sure financially it worked out for me each time, and will likely do so again with this, but I'm so tired of tragedy and misery knocking on my door over and over again.
Thing is, I can't stop, even though what I want to do is just curl up and fall apart. Gotta stay strong, otherwise everything else will crumble around me. But I just wanted to give him a grandkid before he went. I wanted him to be able to read the book series I've been writing.
Sorry. I know people out there and here probably have it worse than me. I'm just down, and rambling a bit. Tbh I really hope some good shit happens next year, cuz I can't wait for this year to end already.
You sound like Job. Toughest Bible story of tragedy and self awareness. God will always be there for you. Now as far as your mom the rest of the family health - look into carnivore. Don’t worry heart attacks from supposed cholesterol highly unlikely. However we are literally meat bone sinew and blood. But we don’t eat that way. We like to follow skinny unhealthy vegans think food pyramid. (Pyramid how interesting that’s what they use.) It should be flipped. Think Moses. Let’s assume you had to feed 60,000 people of all ages. Would you fill up baskets of broccoli, wheat and biscuits? Or would you gather up every cow oxen goat lamb and edible birds? One replaces itself, moved itself and is highly prized. So much so that God loved the odor of meat cooking!! What would keep your men strong, women still fertile and children growing healthy and minds powerful? Each sacrificial animal was cut up and distributed through the tribes. Now do you deserve meat? I do find it is really way cheaper than veg fruit breads rice etc. you will not be as hungry and health is real. See Dr Ken Berry, Zero Carb Life, Homestead How, my Zero Carb Life. No need to jump in but transition over several days to weeks. Good luck.