I think I'm losing it, frens.... With all the shit happening personally my mental health is on a knife edge tbh. I'm getting irrational, angry, emotional over stupid shit, and although my heart seems strong, the rest of me is hurting daily.
I'm living in what was once a nice house and is now looking like a bombsite. It's bringing by a lot of bad memories from the fire I had 9 years ago, which also forces me to remember my late wife. My ptsd is back. Worst of all is there is little I can do about most of this right now, as I'm playing hurry up and wait with the insurance companies and contractors, and my brain and body feel paralysed to act. Feel like I'm failing my family cuz I'm not functioning like I should...
So yeah... Could use some of God's help because I can't do this without him...
I pray for you to completely heal and make you better than you have ever been. You are wise, you are smart, you are loved. We love you. Go easy on yourself and forgive for any anger you have experienced. It is already the past! All is well. Blessings and love to you. Just keep moving forward even a bit each day and you will get there. Don't forget to celebrate all your small accomplishments. At the end of each day do an inventory of all that you did that was good and you will be shocked with gratitude.