Not sure if this is connected to anything, but it sounds weird as f****

Yesterday, there were a number of "explosions" people heard in Belgrade, Serbia, across whole city, and naturally people started asking what is going on.

The official story from the government was that there were no scheduled military exercises, nor anything similar, but that the reason for the sound, was the wind that knocked some tin materials from the construction site. They then went to bla, bla, bla and advise people to be aware of wind knocking stuff, and make sure that they remove or fix in place.... And I feel my brain cells are dying off...

Talk about gaslighting, people naturally did not buy that a tin sheet fall from a construction site in one part of the city could carry over to remote locations, so nobody knows what that was all about, I guess...

Months ago, when the whole jab thing started, my mother and father in law were determined to get it, because TV told them so.

I advised them not to, and that they are going to damage themselves, multiple times, I event told them about how I ended paralised for a month as a kid when I received vaccine back then... Nothing... They went and did it. 3 times. So after that I basically told them I don't want to talk about it anymore.

Now my father in law, months later, as expected, got a serious pneumonia, lost ability to walk, or even sit in bed, lost control of his bowel movements, and ability to talk, so we are taking care of him the best we could trying not to loose our minds in the process... Showing up with a smile, trying to make their life easier, paying for bills, paying for medication, paying for diapers, and food, clipping his toe nails, cutting his hair and beard, changing diapers...

So on top of all that, wife and I were "politely asked" last night to respect my brother in law more, since he feels that "a lot is depending on him". Same brother in law who was organising excursions with the rest of the family to go for a group testing, to see what might be wrong with them... The same guy who cannot lift a bed matrace without having 2 people help him, while wife and I are the ones carrying his immobilised father around... Same guys who can buy both wife and me with his salary but is paying way less for their bad decisions, and the first thing he came to us with was "how are we going to divide the expanses"...

So I snapped, and yelled my lungs off. So my brother in laws, hypochondriac ass was insisting on them getting jabbed. They did it and we are stoically dealing with the damage made, because they are our parents. And I am accused that I am not "respecting" him enough by not being knowledgeable in ins and outs of hospitals and doctors and procedures and not getting the ideas "first" about where to drag the patient, next...

I am not proud of myself, my friends. I did not have "I told you so" moment at any point there. But I think that even the neighbors in next building heard about the boundaries that they will never be allowed to fucking cross with me...

The messed up thing is that I feel like a piece of shit, now, for allowing myself to go full dark mode.

I just finished the call with my mother. They've returned from their vacation in Greece and she wanted to share their impressions... So far so good, right...

Well, I am not that close with my family, over the years our relationship sort of atrophied, because we are so bloody different... but we do talk regularly, in attempts to maintain the level of understanding that we can have... Mostly, spent in me acting like a clown, filling the time of the call with jokes, or just nodding my head to the latest gossips that I have no interest in... OK let me get to the point, I'm loosing my threads... I cannot talk about vaccines with them, since they were always into that stuff. My sister has a medical background and she is pretty much parroting what she is programmed to do in school. The only vaccine I got in my life (Measles one, I believe), before the school, as a child left me paralised on left side of the body for almost a month, and I have epileptic seizures since then, that only got more intense as I got older.

They got the jab so they can go to Greece, of course. My mother had a brain stroke, soon after that and a complete shut-down, but she emerged seemingly OK, with explanation from her doctor that, that sort of thing comes with age... FFS!!! My father was scared shitless and he does not usually cry but that whole experience made him weep. They came back from Greece, full of positive praise for how propaganda there is not as present as here in Serbia. But then she started talking about infected, and common sense to mask, and infected children, and "of course" forbidden gatherings for weddings in Serbia... and my blood is boiling...

I tried to tell her about mask not doing anything, and got response that "she knows" (WTF), I told her about millions of people having adverse effects of the vaccine, and got dismissive response that "she does not have that information", told her about the Nuremberg trails, and at that point I might have been talking to a stone... They do not get any information in. But she did ask me are wife and I going to vacation...

I told her that we are not, that I am not going to do what they did, in order to be allowed to go (not that I'm traveling kind either way, grew up in Yugoslavia while it was being destroyed by Cabal, could not afford to travel, and never got the taste for it). She responded to me that, "well, that is my belief... and she is not going to tell me what is right" (at least they gave up on that years ago)...

Anyway. I cannot talk to them, it's a stone wall. I know this resonates with at least some of you, so I wonder, how do you make peace with yourself. I cannot wake them up. Giving them resources would be like giving a literature to (and I hate to say this), a cattle... I am numb, watching all of this happening, and praying for the resolution, and hoping it will come before more damage is afflicted...

I don't know why I expected anything different, it's not like every country in the world does not have corrupted demons who are all involved in this, it's not like people in my country are not dealing with this same exact shit.... and have been dealing, all of my life... But this bit about Serbian developers working on Dominion technology... This really got to me... I've literally watched and grew up in country destroyed by the same demons that are currently plaguing the world, only to watch it being used as another cog in the mechanism to enslave us all... I never felt like a free man in my life, this kick in the gut should be no different, yet here I am, devastated... Sorry friends, I'm really down...

Looks like all our European services are currently down because of this issue: https://status.cloud.google.com/incidents/f8NTn1ZFA4vXTd3CHQgw

Not sure if this is connected to anything, but seems Google is experiencing some problems...

I was in the post office today, here in Serbia. Went with the mask in, did not feel like getting into another fight over that crap, I've been in too many lately, and felt like if just another guard asks me put that shit on, I would snap beyond control that time... Anyway, the lady inside did not have it on, and I just immediately asked her, what is their policy about it? She told me to take it off, that she would also not wear it because she is suffocating under it... We both started smiling, and thanking each other... I told her she brighten my day... You know friends... For a long time, I felt like I lost my faith in humanity, and I often catch myself sounding dramatic... But there is something else there... I think I am slowly feeling God deep inside, coming to the surface, each day, more and more. Today, I've heard a person in prayer, and I just felt the need to close my eyes, and listen... Last night I had a prayer of my own. Clumsy, I did not know what to say, or how to do it... But today, this lady in post office... She had a little bit of God in herself, too... Not sure where I'm going with this... But thought to share... Thank you for allowing me. And thank God for this place. This forum is one of the last places, where I go daily, when I feel alone.

Man, if that cabal/cannibal/pedo list (was here in one of the posts, cannot find it now, not sure even I want to atm), with all of those pop culture icons, prominent figures, proves to be true... I have some serious thinking to do, re-evaluate my movie and music collection... FFS some of those things shaped my personality growing up, the way I interact with people, some character traits that I am pretty proud of... Seriously, Tom Hanks... WTF?! And stupid fucking Friends show brought smile on my face through some pretty lost moments in my life. It's stupid, I know, but it would be completely dishonest to claim that pop culture did not affect us in significant way, at all... Something is seriously rotten in human nature.... Sorry for this rant, had to get it out...