Qanon is ridiculous and highly dangerous- I had my wife read through your post, she's a psychologist, and she believes that you're in a really dangerous place; it's almost as if you're stuck in a cult.
Q is bullshit. That's just the truth. I'll even bet money on it being bullshit. Almost every Q prediction hasn't been right.
Volunteer with conservative organizations like Walk Away or/and with Scott Presler, vote in the GOP primaries to remove the RINOs, and support the nominated candidates in every way possible. Also ensure to call your State Legislators and demand they fight for election integrity.