I made a post at the beginning of March begging for prayers, then updated a few times about the rollercoaster this has been. My last post about my mother dubbed "Grandma Anon", I said she hadn't woken up from a good day she had and well, we found out last Friday it was because she had suffered another complication.

TL:DR we need more prayers for her healing, she suffered major damage and we have a long road ahead of us.

We met with doctors last Friday that gave us a gut punch of a prognosis. Up until this point, we knew my mother suffered the mother of all brain aneurysms and was lucky to be alive, but she had only sustained damage to one spot on her brain. We figured we could work with that. But her most recent complication caused a lot of infarction, meaning it died off a lot of her brain. They told us she would likely need 24 hr care and not be able to feed or dress herself. Then, they tell us that it's up to us if she wants to live like this. They gave us the option to take away her life giving resources like feeding tube and water.

Now, my Mom is 73. She's not exactly really old. She was full of life and spunky, pretty decent health, very independent, although pretty dependent on my dad as that's how their relationship is. But, to take away her life because she would be severely disabled seems super evil to me. It felt so wrong in that room that they even suggested it. "Would your mother want to live like this?" They kept asking. And they just say it's very likely she'll be severely disabled, they couldn't give us any stats to back it up, etc. The term they kept using was "we'd be very surprised if she got very much better." At one point I directly asked the nuerosurgeon, "Are you telling me my mother is only going to shit and piss herself the rest of her life??" He seemed startled by that question and admitted she would gain more abilities.

We're Catholic Christian, pro-life. So we know and my mother knew that suffering was a part of life, and in many cases it's a mysterious blessing. I mean of course we don't want our mother to be a drooling catatonic disabled person, but we really don't think she will. Even if she's aware and can talk to us but can't wipe her own butt, we're ok with that. She's already woken up and talked to us and even though she's not consistent with a lot of things, we know she just needs time to heal and form new pathways. Her life has value. Period.

It sickens me the amount of people who probably hear such a thing and just say, go ahead and let them die. My own brother said that in the meeting. He since has come around and realized he fell for their bullshit.

My family is also researchers. And my sister found a scientific article about this prognosis model they follow when a person has a severe stroke and it verifies what I had felt and thought. The neurologist and ICU team don't follow up with the severe patients long term. They are also very pessimistic when it comes to a bad stroke, nurses are even more pessimistic, which we saw. They're also not trained in rehabilitation, they just treat and do life saving surgeries. They are just looking at stats. And these stats shove in the fact that many families take the easy road and take away their life sustaining treatments. Or the person is real old so they don't take them to a good rehab facility, just kind of half-ass it. So when they say a certain percentage of people die from a severe brain aneurysm after a month, it's because a certain percentage of families decided to not wait and see, they allowed them to die.

I'm also having trouble not being angry with the ICU team. When my mother had her good day before this last scary episode, she was very alert, talking doing very well, doing commands, had pretty good ability, and they told me she would be out of ICU in a day. She was still in the danger zone for the vasospasms she had just suffered the week prior, which they had treated very quickly. This time last time though, they took 3 whole days to discover it and once discovered, I think the damage had been done because they didn't do any treatment other than raise her blood pressure. It is kind of hard to catch a vasospasm with a scan because it needs to happen during the scan. However, the way they discovered it was by putting dye in her blood stream, which didn't happen for 3 days. In that time, my mother suffered worse damage than the original bleed. They kept reiterating in the meeting how severe her original bleed and subsequent complication was and I just feel like they didn't use much caution after that first storm had passed. After her good day before the damage, they lowered her blood pressure while simultaneously cutting off the flow of her drain, which was draining her spinal fluid. They do that to make sure your body can reabsorb spinal fluid naturally, otherwise they have to do another surgery. It's probably standard procedure with normal cases. But with my mom, it caused more pressure and less blood flow. Which is what causes vasospasms in turn causing her to have brain damage. And honestly, I don't even know if it was vasospasms because one doctor told us he didn't think it was, so there was some disagreement amongst doctors of what had happened. So to be honest, I think they messed up. Because when I incredulously brought up how most of her damage happened in that time, they seemed very defensive in their strategy to find out what was happening. OR, perhaps I just feel the need to blame someone.

I guess I just need to vent to strangers on the internet. And request more prayers. This has been hard news to tell people as we almost feel foolish from having hope she can recover more than what they predict. People in lab coats can do that. But, we're strangely optimistic and have faith and hope she can surprise these doctors and nurses. Maybe even walk or roll into that ICU and do her movie star waive she always liked to do and say "remember me?"

Please pray for her healing. She could encounter other complications to other organs or something could else happen. We are putting a feeding tube in her stomach until she regains better ability to swallow. Pray for us to remain strong and faithful.

Last week I made a good post about Grandma Anon for those asking for news. She had some good days last week, woke up but then would become "sleepy" and intermittently unresponsive. Then last Friday, she had the best night she's ever had and was awake and alert with the night staff, laughing, smiling. I got to see her around 6 am and talked to her and joked that she's always awake with me because I'm her favorite child. She looked at my phone as I showed her pictures of my boys and she said "they are good boys." The nurse had to change her since she kicked her poo bag, I got back to visit her and she was asleep. The nuero team that morning said she likely had one or two more nights in ICU then would transfer to a another stroke unit then go on to a rehab place. I was on cloud nine. I came back home to be with my family and she hasn't woke up since I left her. She won't respond to anything they ask. The ICU NP just had a hard conversation with my dad about the fact this might be how my mom will be the rest of her life. Sleeping in a bed, having to be fed through a tube and not controlling her bowels. I went from so happy last Friday to so much despair. Her neuro team has no idea what is going on and why she's declining and wont stay awake. Her scans look good, blood flow is moving to all parts of her brain, and she's not having strokes or seizures. I've felt messages from God telling me she's healing and she will get better. But then we hear this from the ICU team. I have no idea what to think or feel, but I do feel so much despair that we might have to make a really hard decision about the quality of her life.

Please pray for her and her family, especially my dad who has to be there all alone until we can make it there. Pray for me, I'm doubting if I'm even feeling messages from God at this point. Maybe I'm making it up to feel better about everything. I feel like such a dumby and I'm losing my faith she will be healed and I can hug her again.

Some of you asked for an update:

She’s on day 13 in ICU and after they treated her for her complications she is doing much better today. They told us yesterday and the day before she was doing well but we didn’t see it as she wasn’t responding to commands and just laying there, not moving. But today she is alert and moving even the side that we thought was damaged and she would lose strength in, is moving.

I gotta tell ya, I don’t know if I would be saying all this if it weren’t for your prayers. There’s of course prayers from friends and family, but even strangers who have no skin in the game are so kindly praying for her. And for that I’m so grateful and thankful. I always pray for strangers too. But, reaching out to someone and offering kind words and prayers is so next level and I’m so moved by all of your generosity.

She’s still high risk. And I know anything could still happen, but I feel in my heart God has heard my cries coupled with all of your prayers and is healing her. I just met someone today who said his dad died right on the floor of his house from his burst aneurysm. The fact she even made it alive to the hospital and was life lined here is a feat and a miracle from God. Pray she recovers back to her normal state! This medical bill is probably going to financially break my parents, not to mention if they have to rebuild their house to accommodate any disability. But, I have faith God will provide. Thank you again for the support for Grandma Anon. She’s gonna get a kick out of that nickname when I tell her 🩷

My 73 yo mother had a ruptured brain aneurysm last Thursday and is ICU, not recovering like we hoped. She’s now having complications which make her at risk for stroke and death. Thank the good Lord she isn’t vaxxed, so she has that chance. I’m just feeling really low, she’s my best friend and my sons’ only living grandma. The best grandma. She can’t really open her eyes, talk, move her left side at all. It’s so sad to see as she was so vibrant and spunky. She was the one who redpilled me into looking into Q and brought me back to the faith. I’m reaching out to all corners of the internet for all the prayers I can get. God works miracles, but thy will be done. ✝️

Obviously PCR is dumb. These home tests seem wanky. The nasal swab test from the doc is sketch.

This is the only site that seems to give me accurate information and feedback. And that Hopium which I’m desperate need of right now. I found out an old high school friend’s little sister died at age 32, was put on the ventilator and died yesterday. I kept in contact via social media and she was a real gem of a soul, was vocal about the plandemic, was an elementary school teacher who refused to vaccinate and hated the mask mandates on young students. We lost a good one. I fear the school will use this as fodder to really implement vaccines for faculty and children now. It suck. I didn’t know her that well and I’ve been crying all day about it. She was one of ours, ya know?

Idk. This war is taking its toll on me today. I pray daily but it’s days like this it feels the end will never be near.

Anyway, what about these fucking covid tests? Maybe we should just say she took one and say it’s negative. Fuck em. Anyone got advice?

Any lawfags or informed frens out there know the best way he can sue? Any recommendations on law firms?

My fat headed governor Pritzker has issued a last minute mask mandate for all schools in my state. I plan on attending the school board meeting that finalizes the decision, but I already know it will be to no avail. As much as the locals don't like masks, the small community is afraid to cause controversy and I will seem to be among a minority in attendance that decided to show up. Plus, the schools are being threatened with the withdrawal of state funds, so they will definitely bow.

Our 16 year old has trouble with focusing and motivation, also behavioral issues, so homeschooling will be a task in multiple ways. But I can't bear to let them win by masking her when she's been free to breathe at work, church and other public places. Other than finding a doctor to write her a mask exemption, we are exploring homeschooling as I can possibly help her in her studies as I have an education degree (never certified) and stay at home taking care of her toddler brother.

So, I'm polling this wonderful community for best online homeschooling curriculums that would fit a teen, one who is particularly not self-motivated or school oriented.

I'd greatly appreciate any input, thank you.

I’m not so tech savvy. But the search feature won’t work for me on my phone or on my Mac. Not sure how to ask anyone or how to solve it. Nothing loads. Maybe it’s a problem for everyone or if it’s just me. Sorry if this also not the place to ask.

My husband felt ill and had to be tested for COVID in order to get sick days at work. He tested positive. He followed the nurse’s orders and told the school our daughter goes to, letting them know she was exposed. In hindsight, we probably didn’t need to do that. She was mildly sick with body aches, no fever. and a headache one day about 4 days before my husband, and she felt better that night. Anyway, based on my husband’s positive test, the school was going to make her remote learn for basically a month, 20 days total, due to some retarded formula that people are contagious for 10 days and she could still get it from him on his 10th day. We figured out that if we just tested her, banking that she’d get a positive test, we’d drastically reduce her “quarantine” time. She did get a positive test and she’s already back in school.

Here’s the part that really pisses me off, though. Subsequently, we’ve been called by two different entities, questioning us about our positive tests. My church’s secretary called so she could send out a letter to inform everyone that a positive (non symptomatic) case aka my daughter was at church. This is another drama story, that involves my mother, but I won’t go there. And don’t get me started on the whole mask rule. Our church enforces masks, so I don’t see why it should matter an asymptomatic masked person was in attendance, SINCE MASKS WORK, RIGHT?? And I just got a phone call and voicemail from my county’s health department. We didn’t tell anyone other than the school and my husband’s work. Why are we getting phone calls from these people? Isn’t this a HIPPA violation? I live in a small county population-wise, so I know the church was informed by a covidiot that works for the school and also attends my church. But why is the Health Department calling me? This all feels like a violation of my family’s health privacy. Apparently I had the virus first. But as it just felt like a shitty cold that wouldn’t go away. I never was tested because well, it’s a goal of mine to be never tested. But also, it was so freaking mild, I couldn’t fathom this could be it, the “terrible” virus that shut down the world. I’ve had hangovers that were worse. Granted it took forever to feel 100%, I still think the China virus is a joke. I have yet to personally know one fucking person who has died from COVID. I’ve been over the whole mask wearing, vax pressuring psy-op for some time. But now it’s getting personal. No one should be contact tracing me and my family over a stupid cold. Do I just ignore the health department and not return their call? Or Should I be lawyering up or tell them to get fucked? This is a HIPPA violation, right? Or is HIPPA thrown out the window because it’s a “pandemic”? I honestly hate confrontation. And the area I live in is so small town, I know all the players in this drama and will definitely be running into them at the supermarket. But I know this is just the start to what these Nazis want to do.