Okay, here is the first step. Say a very simple prayer along these lines. But you must be sincere, no mockery. "God, I never believed you existed, but if you do, I want to know the truth. Please reveal yourself to me." That is all it takes. Then, get a bible and start looking for a bible believing church. I know that sounds strange, but a lot of churches have moved very far to the left, having homosexual preachers, etc. So look online for a church in your community and their web page should state their doctrinal beliefs. Fundamental to those these:

They believe in the Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit

They believe in the infallibility of the Bible

They believe in the Virgin birth of Jesus

They believe Jesus willingly died for our sins and was resurrected and now sits at the right hand of God the Father in heaven.

Those are the very most basic things the church should believe. If they are wishy washy or don't expressly state those beliefs, keep looking. I would also highly recommend Kenneth Wuest's Expanded Translation of the New Testament. He uses all the English words necessary to convey the meaning of Scripture (New Testament was written in Greek, Old Testament mostly in Hebrew with a bit of Assyrian.) This New Testament is excellent because it more fully conveys the message. For instance, in Hebrews 13:5b God assures us "I will never leave you, I will never forsake you." That is how most bible translations will render that verse. But Wuest shows us that God goes even further by REPEATING Himself. Wuest's translation says, "I will not, I will not cease to sustain you. I will not, I will not, I will not let you down." The other translations basically get the point across, that God will never leave a believer. But Wuest's more accurate translation really hits the point home with the repetitiveness. I find that amazingly comforting that God repeated Himself. In the meantime, while you try to find a local church with which to fellowship, you can watch sermons on line. There are many good local churches from all over the country that post their sermons. Search around until you find a pastor whose style you like. And I can also recommend Joseph Prince. He has a 'mega church' in Singapore and has a real gift, imo, for teaching the uplifting love of God. Best wishes, fren. Feel free to dm me if you have questions.

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Read Psalm 91 - very appropriate for this moment. Then Psalm 23 and 139. Then the Gospel of Matthew or Luke. That should get you started!! ????

https://archive.org/details/B-001-014-327 You won't regret it.

I found Kevin Zadai very helpful. He has a YouTube channel full of teaching that really helps you understand who God is. He helped me a lot anyway. In my nearly 40 years on this earth, this was the first time I heard a message and got it. Really good stuff! Lots of prophetic stuff about the election too!

Good point. It's not exactly a fight where you can avoid picking a side.

I always assumed that Angeles worked in the background. I'd never ask for Angelic help, but a few months ago that changed.

I was praying as the Holy Spirit was guiding me. I was praying for the Antifa and BLM NPCs, binding the demonic forces besetting them. I became aware of what I pictured as a young lady being beset, and I went after thar demon. I then realized that who I thought was a young lady was actually my son's wife (not young) and that my household was under spiritual attack. I began to address that when the Holy Spirit instructed me to call on Michael. I did this and he appeared.

I'm very autistic and have never really grown up even though I'm 60 and raised a son. I never considered myself as a person of authority. Michael corrected me. He put it wordlessly into my heart that I am the head of my household and that I have great authority over it. Then about 15 feet behind Michael and off to the right, I saw another Angel. He was rather short and slender. He had an air of no nonsense professionalism, like a dedicated soldier, about him. He was my Guardian Angel. I was floored.