Yesterday, I doomed. I doomed hard. I doomed as hard as any, yet I got only a 3 day ban, instead of a full deport.
At the time I was pissed. After a few hours, I realized I was petulant child, not the adult I purport myself to be. So I replied to the admins and apologized. I didn't ask for a stay of my ban though I figured I deserved it, and I was clear on that.
They reduced my ban to one day on their own. Something I felt was extremely generous considering my behavior.
I want to take a moment to apologize to the community. I will never delete my comments, as I feel owning your behavior is important to personal growth. Feel to call me out, call me a shill, and give me some necessary disrespect. I deserve it.
But I'll be clear, that sort behavior will never happen again.
-GreatFunana
It's human though. Instead of kicking your own ass and being ashamed of yourself for despairing when tensions were high and emotions were at an all time high, use it as a learning opportunity instead. Looks like you're doing it right now. The world's full of hate and negativity as it is. You don't need to add to it even if it's directing it at yourself. We fall, we get back up again, and we make a mental note not to trip in that specific spot ever again.
Also, all the "Christians" here saying evil won and the good guys lost are just awful at theology. God didn't lose. He can't. He's the author of all things. The only thing that was "lost" was our confidence in one specific interpretation of how things would play out. It turns out that interpretation was wrong. So be it. It just means God's plan is different than what anons on the internet thought it'd be. He's still sovereign.