I don’t ask as a way for anyone to ‘one-up’ anyone else. Your toughest red pill may be very different from mine. Everyone is different. I’m genuinely curious for a couple of reasons:
- Face and Overcome my Shadow: I listen to Jordan Peterson and he draws heavily from Nietzsche, Jung and Solzhenitsyn. I truly believe it’s important to face, understand and conquer your shadow/inner demons/fears. “Ordinary Men” also gets at this point - almost any human is capable of horrendous atrocities given the right circumstances. The sooner we figure that out, and then face and master our shadow, the better. Those who think, “Oh I‘m not a monster” are some of the most dangerous kinds of people.
- When I stare into the abyss - it definitely shakes and terrifies me - but I also get to glimpse at the worst possible part of humanity. And when I stared I saw what I could be if I really wanted it, and I learned my own reaction: when my minds eye witnessed such terrible suffering, I determined only one thing - that I wanted to be AS FAR AS POSSIBLE from whatever that was (yes, not receiving the suffering but just as importantly - not dishing it out, none of it). And for me, the answer was Christ. To walk AS CLOSE TO HIM as possible. It’s a weird thing, I know. I hate suffering, and I hate hearing about it. But it strengthens my resolve to be MORE LIKE CHRIST and to do more good (I just have to moderate the doses and come up for air sometimes, otherwise it’s overwhelming). That leads to reason #2.
- Build Resilience: I don’t pretend to have reached the end of the rabbit holes. I’m sure they go much deeper, and get much worse. When all dark comes to light I’d like to be one of the ‘conspiracy fags’ that is, for the most part, not caught off guard by anything. “If you can keep your head when all about are losing theirs and blaming it on you,” - I want to be that guy. So, this is also a way for me to continue learning and - hopefully in moderated doses - build my resilience (and keep my shadow on a tight leash).
- If you can only handle so much I think that means you’re a ‘normal’ empathetic human being (non-psychopath). Remember take time to balance with the GOOD. There are SO MANY wonderful things all around us - we just have to look for them.
We don’t need or want graphic details - just a brief description with keywords or names. If this post is a problem I will gladly delete, or be happy to have a mod discard it (I’m going to bed so may not see initial responses).
Mine, non-Q related. I won’t give too many details because it still (somewhat) haunts me. 16 July 2020 9:41pm. An incident with the best friend I’d ever had, whom I was trying to help with his untreated borderline personality disorder, cocaine addiction, thievery, and prostituting himself in exchange for drugs. There’s much more to it but I’m absolutely convinced that demonic possession is real. My sleep schedule has been jacked up and backwards ever since.
That would shake me as well my fren. When I’m feeling good I can sort of laugh at the devil’s lowly state - but other times I’m absolutely terrified by what demons are capable of.
The hardest thing to swallow is almost 100 million people could not stop the thief of their country. We did not even try. Justice is the only thing that was crushed. Freedom fell in a flame of silence.
All the pedophilia/child sacrifice stuff discussed in Fall of the Cabal. I knew some of it, but I had no idea the depths of the horror.
I realized how naive I've been to the evil in this world. My relationship with the Lord has never been stronger than it is right now. I have seen true evil, now. And it is still hard for me to believe sometimes.
My hardest red pill is seeing stuff like this in action over the years. News reported less stuff... narrative kicked in... I was drinking the FlavorAide for a few years. The depth, scope of these things, how we are actually sheep/cattle to the elite. How out in the open the elite are about depopulation, normalization pedo, destruction of rights...
TLDR: The scope of what is happening in the world that normies don't see at all.
https://www.bitchute.com/video/F6vrTi4DlfrJ/ Made me vomit and cry. Most if this I knew about and worked hard to expose during the Obama administration's, at a cost. But the part about the Rothschilds pizza place, the art, all the countless high profile visitors and what they do to children. I still lose sleep, here I am.
That our entire society and systems are dictated to us by ancient religions that no one is talking about.
For instance: anyone else know who Columbia is, why she's on top of the Capital building, and why the Washington monument looks like it does?
Opens up many other doors that you wouldn't believe were true if you weren't seeking truth.
Don’t know about Colombia. Will dig.
The omnipotency of God overcomes everything. I have experienced demoniacs several times in my life and their manifestations are later confirmed in books that I've read that are written by exorcists. I have experienced miracles, too. Personal and communal. I have sought neither type of experience but, God clearly allowed it for good reasons. If you completely love Him, you trust Him and your fears will be allayed.
The pedo stuff fom Fall of the Cabal. Between the rampant symbolism, pizzagate, the "art" and "artists', and casualness if it all for them nearly made me sick. And the Spirit Cooking. I look for symbols in everything, can't watch some of my long time fav movies or actors, altered some of the music I listen to, and avoid companies or products associated with that stuff. "Never meet your heroes" takes on all new meaning now.
These people are sick.
I genuinely don't think I have one, I've seen so much horrific shit on Tor since I was red pilled that I honestly don't believe there's anything that could shock me. Maybe a kid snuff film, but who would willingly watch that.
I agree about the snuff film. Hearing accounts is enough to make it hard to sleep. Watching would be extra tough.
Holocaust hoax
Heard whispering about this but will have to dig some more.
My toughest red pill: Katy Groves, CIA MK Ultra and snuff film survivor. Can’t confirm her stories are true, but I imagine someone has suffered them - and worse. She’s on YT
Not afraid to admit I haven’t finished all her videos. They’re very heavy ... (not all are heavy)
I think that it's important to have caution when dealing with the ideas of Carl Jung.
Jung was a fraud, occultist, and cult leader; essentially the L. Ron Hubbard of his day. Here's a page with an excellent summary of the reasons to be cautious of him:
https://www.hgi.org.uk/resources/delve-our-extensive-library/interviews/mysterious-jung-his-cult-lies-he-told-and-occult