I am touched by both your posts. I am a terrible "Christian" tbh. I can, however, based on my limited knowledge and based on what God has revealed to me through the years point you guys in the right direction.
What you are seeking, what you need, and what you want, need to align with God. So it is easier to point out first what you should NOT be seeking. You shouldn't be seeking a church. Why? Because we have been conditioned to seek a guidance from men, or people of authority. For this you ought to be careful because many are the ways of deceit. Only one is the True way. Jesus is the light, and the way. Nobody reaches the Father except through Him. So, what you SHOULD be seeking is a relationship with Jesus. When you seek that, everything else will fall into place.
First thing you ought to do is learn about Him. Then understand His mission and why He did what He did. Then, when ready and your soul is ready, accept that truth and confess to yourself and God that you truly accept Jesus as your Lord and savior. Seek His understanding and be sensitive to the Holy Spirit as you walk through this journey. To be sensitive to the Spirit that will dwell within you must feed it, read the word, scrutinize, ask God for revelation. God will put you in the right place, at the right time, with the right people. Congregate and share your testimony for others encouragement. However when you congregate, know this; men fail, and your sights need to be placed on the Lord. The journey is heavy if you make it that way, and know that God will reveal to you the things that he wants you to change. However if you bring your sins and your troubles to the feet of Christ, He will help you with the burden. Be humble and recognize your imperfections, for when we stumble and we recognize our sin, His power becomes manifest.
I am touched by both your posts. I am a terrible "Christian" tbh. I can, however, based on my limited knowledge and based on what God has revealed to me through the years point you guys in the right direction.
What you are seeking, what you need, and what you want, need to align with God. So it is easier to point out first what you should NOT be seeking. You shouldn't be seeking a church. Why? Because we have been conditioned to seek a guidance from men, or people of authority. For this you ought to be careful because many are the ways of deceit. Only one is the True way. Jesus is the light, and the way. Nobody reaches the Father except through Him. So, what you SHOULD be seeking is a relationship with Jesus. When you seek that, everything else will fall into place.
First thing you ought to do is learn about Him. Then understand His mission and why He did what He did. Then, when ready and your soul is ready, accept that truth and confess to yourself and God that you truly accept Jesus as your Lord and savior. Seek His understanding and be sensitive to the Holy Spirit as you walk through this journey. To be sensitive to the Spirit that will dwell within you must feed it, read the word, scrutinize, ask God for revelation. God will put you in the right place, at the right time, with the right people. Congregate and share your testimony for others encouragement. However when you congregate, know this; men fail, and your sights need to be placed on the Lord. The journey is heavy if you make it that way, and know that God will reveal to you the things that he wants you to change. However if you bring your sins and your troubles to the feet of Christ, He will help you with the burden. Be humble and recognize your imperfections, for when we stumble and we recognize our sin, His power becomes manifest.