When I look around I see many people who although might be good, humble and smart are still asleep. I see good christian people who are.much better people than myself who are asleep.
I wonder why I think the way I do and question the way I do. O6t seems it would be easier and more blissful to be asleep but my mind cant help itself. Why is that?
I think it's the same for all of us. Something inherent in oiur thinking refuses to accept illogical excuses for this illogical reality. It's hard to explain. Sometimes infeel.likeninwas chosen for this. This was my purpose perhaps.
Thinking further, Rush really did have a huge influence in how I approached the media. He analyzed articles daily and I learned to be skeptical. He had such a knack for seeing through the media lies and showing us what the Democrats were always up to.
I'm reading about Hitler and the occult but I'll read "Think Again" next. I, too, am an engineer since age 10 when I took over my father's electronics hobby - he became bored with it but I still haven't at age 70.
I have never been "ordinary". I never felt that I belonged on Earth. I think I've lived on another planet(s) in previous lives. I have a high IQ. I got a university degree, despite coming from a working class English family. I never really fitted in and socialising was problematic. No, I'm not autistic - or very marginally. My parents were always kind to me. I had no problems there, although we disagreed on some things.
I started to wake up around age 43 when I had a health shock - a sudden problem that won't kill me but will always be with me. At that point I realised that I was a wage slave. I was dependent on others for my survival. That scared me into trying ways to earn money and, later, to live more frugally. It was around that time that I began to read about UFOs, which led me to conspiracies - JFK, Bohemian Grove, etc. Then 9/11 really woke me up. I could scarcely believe what the talking heads on TV were telling me when it was obvious they were "greatly mistaken" - to put it mildly. Then trump came onto the political scene and I began to follow reports about him. The cartoonist Scott Adams wrote an excellent blog about how Trump would definitely win because he used persuasion techniques.
And he won. And Jordan Sather pointed me to the Q posts.
I always felt different too. I was smart but not brilliant. I just never fit in well with any groups until I went to Officer Training School for USAF. I think I was just old for my age. I had the best time in the Air Force and gained the confidence to dare to be different and be myself. I am conservative now because of the military and the older engineers in General Dynamics. We sat in an open room at a missile launch site and had many a conversation about sports and politics when we weren’t out on the launch pad. Those men had wild stories from the Cuban Missile Crisis that have stayed with me. They slept at the site for days and were reconfiguring the Atlas missiles to put live warheads on them. I had a hundred or so older brothers at that job and they helped make me a better woman :)