For me, I was not taught to love myself. I am autistic and had serious self worth issues through being very different and very uncoordinated. If you feel you can't compete, you have set rules for equal outcome and hate and punish anyone who doesn't work by your rules. My parents were heavily indoctrinated. I didn't know any history and was only exposed to left wing ideas.

Classic stuff and painful to change from. Yuri Bezmenov would have given up on me. But I pulled myself out, mostly out on my own with logic.

My lefty partner is still stuck in that angry place where she only trusts big government to make things right. She, against the evidence, doesn't believe in evil in high places.