The only thing that generates fear and dooming is the thought of the "green light" not coming fast enough. We desperately crave the moment when we stop holding the line and finally go over the top. We want to stop waiting and start fighting. I don't know if I speak only for myself. But destruction would barely phase me, if I could see and show others that it's really happening. It's not the firefight that stresses and demoralizes, it's that dreaded calm before all the guns go loud