I'm a former recovering pornography addict and I've been fighting my imaginations and failing miserably to fight my passions and I fear my ever drawing closer to backsliding and I'm too embarrassed to bring it up to other Christians and I've found nothing but love and encouragement on this board. Please someone pray for me? I've been caught in the lust of the flesh and I just feel broken and cast down and feel the desire to hang in the towel. My failure of self control has left me contrite and ashamed and I don't know where else to go. I can't see how Jesus can have patience on me when that's a sin I used to be a repeat offender in and I've slipped quite a bit these past few months with no one to confide and confess to. Not the physical act of porn but the imaginations and self gratification and masturbatory nature thereof. It's an addiction I've been very open with with fellow believers in my circle but given my recent slipping backwards I'm just too ashamed to say it to them. Forgive the shitpost please. I just don't even feel Jesus wants to put up with me anymore. Which I know is a lie but when you fall into sin it's hard to believe He can forgive an offense been forgiven before. Apologies if for any unsightliness I may have caused by sharing.
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Hi fren, I apologize if I have upset you by stating my Catholic beliefs. I think this conversation would be better suited to sitting on a patio and discussing over a glass of wine as we have gotten off topic from the original intention of my comment (attempting to support OP) and his post. I agree we have been set free by Christ who opened the gates of Heaven after dying for our sins. God did not give me the gift of being an eloquent debater, especially on a keyboard, and I have humbly become aware of this fact over the years. However, I know Him and love Him very much. My faith sets me free by giving me the ability to serve Him and love Him and hear His forgiveness through a priest who He has ordained, and who can trace their lineage back to Christ and St. Peter. I will live my life, but I will do it by loving God and following His commandments and continuing to ask for His help as I grow closer to Him. I take great comfort in my faith and in scripture and traditions. No need to worry about me, I have freedom in knowing that Christ will always forgive me and search me out if I go astray. I feel His love every day and know I am a beloved child of God. It sounds like your faith gives you peace in your life as well, so I am grateful you also have Jesus in your life. Blessings to you.