Pedes,
Our ranks have been assaulted and slapped and many of us have scattered throughout the winds to attempt re-entrenchment.
I write to say I have to bow out - not that I expect shit from any of you outside of you doing what you do.
The Covid OP bashed me and my family. Intensely. I'm finally realizing that I did not walk through this valley untouched - I have PTSD.
We all talk about Autism here. I live it. Around the clock. My 6 year old girl has severe autism. When the Plandemic hit - it nuked her entire life, rather, OUR ENTIRE FAMILY.
While some people were freaking out having panic attacks about where to find toilet paper - I was running across Houston attempting to find the only items she would eat, toiletries, and whatever else. I was in a constant state of "ready for battle" before the Plandemic. Then it hit, and I saw it coming, and we watched the insanity of the election happen with a summer of rage - which now looks like it's about to crescendo into the "CIA UAP OP" so many of us joked about a year ago. They're going for it.
Guys - realize your limits.
Be there for one another.
We have enough shills around to fill Hunter Bidan'z crack-pipe ( just kidding that could never be full enough ). Stick the fuck together and do good to all of those around you.
Realize when it's time to shut up, back out, and Anon Up - cuz ain't nobody out there going to tell you when.
I'm blessed to be here, alive, writing this message. I made it. So many I knew with serious PTSD didn't. Vets that couldnt make their counseling appointments, parents of autistic kids that just couldn't handle "Well if this is the world I can't fucking continue", and kids .... FREAKING KIDS ... that are now growing up knowing nothing different with all of this.
We can't get better covering up Sin and pretending it isn't there.
We can't improve by building a house on lies.
We cant thrive by waiting on baited breathe for actions to take.
Go out and lift up those around you.
Listen to those around you.
The impact of all of this on kids is bigger than you can imagine.
If you are not finding a way to work with kids, mentor kids, throw them a line - they are lambs waiting for the slaughter.
We can all talk a bunch of shit about this or that - if you don't actively set the example in your community - that community is going to move on without you or die on the vine.
If you are reading this, I love you ( even if you are a shill ).
If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
Psalms:139-8
The hardest part is the R&R.
That's when the whole 'Wow. This is actually true." shit /w the PTSD sunk in.
I literally can't relax. I can't have a beer. I can't even take my shoes off or sleep without one eye open. Just keep waiting for a shoe to drop because every time I did allow myself to take my eye off the prize - something happened.
Imagine knowing you have to piss. No big deal, right? Well - you have to wait. Who is going to make sure your kid doesn't climb into a cabinet and find a knife you didn't know was there? Who will make sure your kid doesn't run through a window?
Then you finally do pee. The second you shut the door to go - you hear screams. Now it's piss yourself and run, or finish and pray?!? Then you run out with piss on your pants cuz you had no idea if someone was dying or what and then your see your kid somehow got out the door - you fucking forgot the door cuz you had to piss and 3 kids were screaming and fighting. Now your kid is running up a busy street or fell into water outside your house.
And it happens every time you need to piss.
Then take all of that, package it up, and hear 10,000 voices telling you to vaccinate your kid cuz 'it's safe' from the same virtue-signaling assholes that tell you that you are fucking up as a parent, as a husband, as a friend, as a bother, as an uncle, as an Anon, even, while none actually follow through and come watch your kid long enough for you to piss.
Feel it?
Its a battle everyone faces. I think for those who master the problem, their success method may not necessarily work for others.
Apply the same level of scrutiny and analysis that ultimately bought you here to your own situation. As guys like Flynn have said, winning locally is how the edifice of crime and graft and evil eventually gets undermined and topples over. And nothing is more local than your own direct family. If you have to unplug and apply an IRL spam-filter to malign influences that are making life difficult, then do that.
We pray for you, and prayers are mighty, fren. More people understand than you might think, and they wouldn't be the ones talking at you, but looking in from the sidelines wondering if they should reach out a hand or a hug. You may feel them if you can make a tiny moment or two of stillness in between the noise, but regardless, trust that they are there.
It sounds very stressful. You feel bound every moment worrying about your child's safety, and you know you have needs too. In the long run one person can't do everything for another, both are going to suffer. If she needs minute by minute watching that's one problem. If you are frantic with exhaustion and losing hope that's another. Please don't lose hope, there are people who want to help you get the rest you need so you can continue to protect your daughter, I'm sure of it.