From February 2009:
"They were saying I smoke crack and using all this innuendo, and I thought a magazine as credible as Newsweek? I was very surprised that this was happening. And then I thought I had to make some real choices. Is that what I want for myself? Did I get TOO big? Because I like people. And I like entertaining. And the higher up I go, for some reason the less happy I am. You know, is it going to get to the point where I'm doing a strip tease on TRL or waving a gun on the street saying they're trying to kill me? No, I'm not going to let it get to that point. I'm going to go to Africa... I'm going to find a way to be myself man, I gotta you know... I'm an artist man, you know I don't need a Sneaker deal. There's only six studios, man. There's only six agencies, man. This is a small controlled thing and I don't... like having to beg for the spotlight, man. You know, the machine is good for us and we're good for the machine and it should be... it should be fair, man. Martin had a stroke, he almost died. And then after that, I saw him and I said oh my God Martin, are you okay? And he said, I got the best sleep I ever got in my life. That's how tough he is. And so the question is, what is happening in Hollywood? That a guy that tough... would be on the street waving a gun screaming 'they are trying to kill me'? What is going on? Why is Dave Chappelle going to Africa? Why is Mariah Carey taking a one hundred million dollar deal and taking her clothes off on TRL? A weak person cannot get to sit here and talk to you. There ain't no weak people talking to you. So what is happening in Hollywood? Nobody knows! The worst thing to call somebody is crazy, it's dismissive. I don't understand this person, so they're crazy. That's bullshit. These people are not crazy, they're strong people. Maybe their environment...... is a little sick."
Well guess we will see eh? I got $10 on ya
I want the truth so badly. For a while it was really interfering with my day to day life. I lost interest and drive in almost everything amd I was spiraling downward. Thankfully I got a grip and am focused more on myself first and foremost.
That's that I've known for years about the reality of the world but after the last election amd then jan 6 and then the inauguration and all the date faggimg, my life hit a huge slump.
The drinking got worse, anxiety and depression flared up, this last month has been heaven-sent. I've been getting into much better shape physically and mentally.
But god damn if I wasn't on the verge of driving down to DC in January and do something stupid.
I want the truth. People are boiling over inside and have been for years now as the left got away with burning cities, poisoning the minds of children, getting a pass by most, and us being made out to be psycho immoral idiots.
It really is like taking a cheese grater to the soul.
Yes. You are seeing the reality we live in. This is Hell on Earth, the Prince of darkness rules this planet as so told to us by God. For a while Satan will have dominion over the Earth. My mind doesn’t have boundaries or barriers anymore. ANYTHING is possible and everything I thought I knew was a lie. Jesus is the only way; He is the truth and light. That makes a lot more sense to me, considering I was agnostic not long ago.
I would be in a very dark place if I wasn’t holding Jesus’ hand as I walk through the valley of the shadow of death. I fear no evil now
Amen. The lord has given me conviction and strength I hadn't had before. When I am lost I always turn to him even when I went through my agnostic and atheistic phases, where I thought I was so much smarter than everyone else.
Thats amazing. Godspeed to ya patriot