Pedes, This journey is long and arduous. I've felt pretty isolated, alone, and stressed about what's going on in the world. It's gotten to a point where I can't have a healthy relationship with my girlfriend of 3 years. She's not fully awake, but she isn't a complete npc either.
How do you keep yourself positive through all this, and how do you clean yourself of this negativity? The last thing I want is to bring this stress and negativity onto the people I care about.
I find the best way of healing is to do something positive, then do another thing positive. Each step you take, you find your way back to the light.
Volunteer. Help other people. Find a creative hobby, like painting, learn a musical instrument, pottery, anything creative. Plant a winter garden.
Do something positive. Other people will respond positively to you.