You want to know why you? Because you are a sinner. because God wants to save his children who havr been lost.

God tests his faithful, like he did Job, and this i know too well, yet still i believe and have faith in him. God gives to the lost a chance of redemption. You have taken that chance, brother. Believe in Him, and strive to follow his word and his law.

At the end of the day, we are all sinners. If you strive to be better tomorrow than you were today, however, you are on the right path.