i walk into a waiting area. some are waiting to be seen. there are a couple of rooms in front of the waiting area. a doctor is in and out seeing the patients out of these rooms. since its facing the waiting area everything in terms of nurses walking about is happening right in front of the waiting area.

as time goes on i watch one of the doctors go back and fourth. this doctor then walks into a room with the door open and some one says something to him. he then loudly replies

"we decide who gets covid tests, it doesn't matter if they ask for it"

everyone who was sitting down looked around and was confused by what he just said. then i realize the person behind me was trying to get a covid test. i think to myself "if covid was such a dire issue then why is it the hospitals choice if they give you a test or not?". i thought covid tests were given to any and all at any time. the lady behind me seemed to not have known this either as she was freaking out about not getting a test.

it doesn't end there. on the surface you could walk in and everything would seem normal but once you sit down and observe what goes on. it begins to not make sense. for example. the main door way is bustling full of people. there are a few people waiting to get seen. if a patient was there to be seen anyone with them must wait on the other side of the glass. sounds expected right? so the problem is i saw people walking in with each other. they had already checked in and have been sitting there for a while. once they go up to give their information, the booth is not far from security. the security ends up hearing who the actual patient is and THEN he comes up to them and saying oh the "non patient gotta wait outside the glass".

when im getting seen, the first things i tell them are about my health. one of them is a prevention of vaccines of any kind. as shes taking my my temp and what not she goes

"have you gotten your vaccine yet"

i looked her straight in the face and told her i already spoke about that. it was like a pre scripted message.a drone in a movie. it didn't matter what was told to her. that question would always be in the back of her head to ask.

i get seen by the doctor and im telling him about my problems. he prescribes pain medication. i gotten x rays done and they were suppose to be looked at by my family doctor but this was an emergency. i was feeling a lot of pain. he refuses to look at the x rays. then in the middle of explaining my pain he asks

"wears your mask?"

context: at this point i went throughout the hospital mask less the entire way. i was in pain to where it hurt to breath. a mask wouldn't help obviously. it felt uncomfortable. the first time i walked in the hospital i was withering in pain. it was very hard to keep my composure as i was falling to the ground with pain. after being there for while the security is like

"you gatta do somethin about a mask"

i voiced my opinions. i wasn't all sun shine and rainbows. the only thought that kept running through my head is " why would you care about a mask if someone is in that much pain" the even funnier part about it is that there was a guy with no mask laying a feet away from me.

i sat in the waiting area and the rest of the time i was there with no mask. 15 mins into seeing me the doctor says he cant see me because i refuse to put on a mask. it doesn't dawn on him that he was already seeing me and has already prescribed me medication. i leave the hospital. with nothing meaningful done but i did learn a lot. i learned that cognitive dissonance runs deep. so deep that their own ideologies are delayed. so deep that they cant even keep up with their own rules. the entire hospital no matter what is was didn't make sense. you have people suffering and moaning and then nurses and emts laughing in the next corner about their day to day. the mask rules don't make any sense because staff and people break them all the time just because of the nature of the job. everything is soulless, bare, devoid of any care for the fellow human being