During this scamdemic, and for the first time in my life, my ability to stand by my values has seriously been put into question. I have caved to pressure almost my entire life and have always resented myself for this. I always wondered if would cower in a situation that pit my morals against authority.
These past few years have helped me solidify myself internally and spiritually. Almost like I am a rock that cannot be broken now. I witness coworkers and friends who are reluctantly willing to cave into the pressure exerted by the gov, but I am comfortably not in that group anymore. They are uncertain of their future, while I am quite comfortably certain of mine.
I had family members who came to me last year wanting me to join in starting a covid testing business. Lots of $ to be made but I couldn't sell my soul like that. Looking back, I could not be happier.
I get the motto that "If I don't do it, then someone else will" But when it comes to something I believe to be completely against my morals, no amount of money is going to change my stance.
I have never gotten a "test"
I will never get a "test"
Therefore, I cannot encourage anyone to be "tested".
I will not participate in this con
I hope this has been as much of a growing experience for you all as it has been for me.
Lots of love
Anon, some times people will never apologize.
Stuff like that can burden people their entire life, and it weighs them down like a backpack filled with boulders.
Forgiving them is going to have to be done either way, if they apologize or not. I know this might seem impossible, but if you try forgive some small things, come to peace with them, it can become like riding a bike. Once you get the hang of it you can forgive the big things. And once you're free of it, if they ever do apologize, it will feel 100's of times better, since you already dealt with it and you can say with a smile "i already forgave you" and if they still seem troubled, advice them to forgive themselves.
It's sad to hear you say all these things, but i know how it is, and i too had to unlatch that weight on my back so i could heal. No easy task, but i'd be a bitter unhappy person, maybe even dead, if i didn't.