"I knew I liked you. Haha!" hahaha. Yeah, likewise. (I believe I pointeds that out while ranting in my first comment!)
"I get like Paul Atraides in the Gom Jabbar." Hmmm. Yeah, that rings all sorts of bells. Letting emotions just roll over me is kind of my speciality. That is, not denying them, not negating them, but letting them come in, throw me around, but holding my center all the while. Have become really good at it - in some areas. Which is why discovering my anger consciously was a real biggy. I was experiencing it all the time, but completely unable to see it!
"I KNOW I stuff it down" Hmmm. (if any of what follows is unwelcome, please just shove it out the door!) Yeah, that's your mum coming through. If my energetic senses are correct (and they usually are - I don't really need time and space for this stuff, it just comes) this was your mum's stuff. She cannot get angry because there was very likely someone with real anger issues who did a lot of damage or who was very damaged, or someone who really experenced overwhelming tragic sorrow. Might be a parent of her's or a relative, or someone further back. It all comes down the line.
Anyway, unlocking this stuff can really help you move forward. Just make sure to do it with prayer and offering, and hold onto the Rock! But I mentioned that book in the last comment for this reason. Maybe the reason we interfracted here was to share that little nugget.
If you're interested, I recommend getting the book and taking a peek. It's transformative for me (and I'm still in that process). The things we inherit from our lineage .....
"But if I get sad about something really REAL, I might not ever get back up (an exaggeration, but it sums up the root feeling)."
Hah! Look who's good at articulating themselves!!! Look, well said. But If I'm reading all the points properly, all this indicates to me that you're carrying someone else's load. And a) that's not a bad thing, because it helps to make you who you are and b) when you resolve this or liberate this, those who carried or still carry the load can experience liberation through (you).
The point is, not to deny the load (that would only stifle) but to understand where it originally comes from, and WHO, and then to release back into the wild.
OK. I'm probably totally over-stepping the bounds of privacy and social decorum, so just put all of this aside if it feels inappropriate. But healing is really a big part of what I've been called to do (by God), so I'm kind of compulsive about that sort of thing. (Another trait I need to get balance on.)
Either way, uber-joyful to read your replies. Yay!
"I knew I liked you. Haha!" hahaha. Yeah, likewise. (I believe I pointeds that out while ranting in my first comment!)
"I get like Paul Atraides in the Gom Jabbar." Hmmm. Yeah, that rings all sorts of bells. Letting emotions just roll over me is kind of my speciality. That is, not denying them, not negating them, but letting them come in, throw me around, but holding my center all the while. Have become really good at it - in some areas. Which is why discovering my anger consciously was a real biggy. I was experiencing it all the time, but completely unable to see it!
"I KNOW I stuff it down" Hmmm. (if any of what follows is unwelcome, please just shove it out the door!) Yeah, that's your mum coming through. If my energetic senses are correct (and they usually are - I don't really need time and space for this stuff, it just comes) this was your mum's stuff. She cannot get angry because there was very likely someone with real anger issues who did a lot of damage or who was very damaged, or someone who really experenced overwhelming tragic sorrow. Might be a parent of her's or a relative, or someone further back. It all comes down the line.
Anyway, unlocking this stuff can really help you move forward. Just make sure to do it with prayer and offering, and hold onto the Rock! But I mentioned that book in the last comment for this reason. Maybe the reason we interfracted here was to share that little nugget.
If you're interested, I recommend getting the book and taking a peek. It's transformative for me (and I'm still in that process). The things we inherit from our lineage .....
"But if I get sad about something really REAL, I might not ever get back up (an exaggeration, but it sums up the root feeling)."
Hah! Look who's good at articulating themselves!!! Look, well said. But If I'm reading all the points properly, all this indicates to me that you're carrying someone else's load. And a) that's not a bad thing, because it helps to make you who you are and b) when you resolve this or liberate this, those who carried or still carry the load can experience liberation through (you).
The point is, not to deny the load (that would only stifle) but to understand where it originally comes from, and WHO, and then to release back into the wild.
OK. I'm probably totally over-stepping the bounds of privacy and social decorum, so just put all of this aside if it feels inappropriate. But healing is really a big part of what I've been called to do (by God), so I'm kind of compulsive about that sort of thing. (Another trait I need to get balance on.)
Either way, uber-joyful to read your replies. Yay!