Same here. I was so used to handling everything...until seemingly everything was getting out of control. Felt like all I was doing was fighting. Fighting to maintain everything that was going on. It finally hit when things were getting physical with my neighbor, work associates, random strangers. I was like what the heck? Lost countless sleep hours. Was bent on hatred for dang near everything. When all the while I had it all. God gave me my wife, children, abilities, the list goes on and on. My cup over flows with His blessings. And I deserved none of it. I finally gave in. Was broken. Felt like I couldn’t hold back tears for a few months. I was finally home. What a journey. Best year of my life, last year, so far. It just gets better from here, no matter what happens. Because I trust in Gods will. So I understand giving into someone’s trust over your own. I hope it goes more smoothly for you than it did me. LoL. But then again, whatever it takes right? I need Jesus now, everyday. So I’m glad I got wrecked beforehand. It’s what I needed.

I mentioned our conversation to my wife this morning, and talked about how a few songs I listen to really bring me back. To when I was on my knees, practically begging our Lord. I didn’t used to think music helped. But it really does. Music that songs praise to my God in Heaven...we smile together, listening to it. And I’m not gonna lie, I feel like I got a pretty good voice...in my truck, singing along, with none else around. 😁

This is a song that really helps her. I told her I’d share it with you. https://youtu.be/KwX1f2gYKZ4