were all feeling it, but you've seen the matrix right? In the past 6 months weve freed more minds in the past 6 years. In the past 3 weeks more canadians have woken up to the width and breadth of the corruption. The system is scared...hah i just realized you may be having a rough week for others reasons. Either way, things will get better because they have to.
I’ve been “awake” for a few years now, but still sometimes I get shocked or overwhelmed at HOW corrupt it all really is. Like it still blows my mind. Seeing what Trudeau did to the truckers, seeing the issues going on now with Russia, my best friend telling me she got her booster today… it just fucking sucks some days. I am scared about the future. Hard to keep chugging along in life and trying to care about “normal” things. How do I care about going to the gym and staying in shape? How do I care to set financial goals when it looks like market crash is inevitable? It’s hard to live life and succeed with this black cloud. How do you continue on with normal daily activities and have any joy in it? It’s all just feeling pointless to me right now, and I’m not used to that at all. Have always been super goal oriented. Anyone have advice so I can change my outlook? Been struggling with this for like a year and it’s not getting better
I think it's completely normal to have that outlook. I haven't felt normal since Nov 3, when the election was stolen. I feel like my life has been on hold.
Many things are happening. Many unjust things. We are truly at war. Day after day justice is being abused. So it is depressing. I try to take joy in the little things of life. Eating and talking with my family, walking the dog. But lately, I am feeling more hopeful. Little by little we are having small wins.
My family has prepared as much as we can. We must win. This is the hill we win or die on. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. I already KNOW I am not going to a concentration camp.
I am cautiously optimistic about The Plan. We must wait and in the meantime, do whatever we can to push justice. I saw a talk by Catherine Austin Fitts who is a very intelligent and capable investment banker.
She said THEY CAN'T INSTALL COMMUNISM IF WE DON'T COMPLY.
I am just so resentful that I feel like an important time in my life is being stolen from me. I'm a single woman, early 30's, finally have all my shit together in life and felt like I was setting myself up for success. Feels like all that hard work is being taken right now. I'm just having a bad week I think, and will snap out of this soon. I do see the wins we are having, we have awesome things happening for sure with Durham and the mandates being lifted. Its just hard to stay strong week after week and month after month and not have any doubts or bad feelings. thank you for your comment, it does help to know others feel like this too
ironically ive never been goal oriented but i have a math / science mind so i passively accomplished a number of goals without ever having goals (which isn't a good thing). My point of saying that is I've never really had goals because everything seemed so vanilla and predictable. I had no motivation because i didnt want for anything. However, because of the acceleration lately i've gotten more motivated to work out, more motivated to have and do life goals (just bought a house last year) etc. I 100% know how you're feeling, what i have found helpful for me is to identify 3 "selves" for lack of a better term.
my "immediate self", my well being, health, philosophy, beliefs etc. I focus on those things when i first wake up, stretch/yoga maybe some light exercize, mediation/breathwork etc. not all those things each morning, but a subset depending on time & how i feel what i need. I make sure i've got my food situated (ive got autoimmune/gut issues so i stick to an autoimmune palea diet and with that comes making food as most places to eat use things i shouldnt have). Also having a regular sleep schedule super important and ending the day if a nice tea and recapping how the day went, what can i do better, what did i do well, etc
i look at my "local self." This includes my job, house, "wealth," things i own, and neighbors, friends, city (mines relatively small). I work on those things during the day. I completely understand you on financial goals, but i know the system is screwy but I suggest sticking to what you know. For instance, i know i need a place to live so i put most of my cash in buying this house. then i bought tools and other things that have value in its use and still hold value to me if the system collapses. Also bought up food and vitamins / seeds / gardening stuff. THings that are shelf stable for at least a couple years. That way i buy bulk on things i know i will use before it expires (hedges against inflation) also buying bulk usually has good discounts. I spend some time working in my yard, trimming trees, admiring the plants/animals on this small piece of land i am custodial on. (quote from movie "kingdom of heaven" - for what good is a man if he does not improve his lands - something to that effect, great movie). That specifically is helpful, having a responsibility for something. Not joking when i do yard work i take care to watch where i step so i avoid doing any unnecessary damage to the plants and bugs etc. They are all under my "domain" and i feel in some ways responsible to give them the best opportunity at life....so i could go on here as this thought process extends to frens, neighbors, job (career), etc
the "matrix self" no joke i find it so much easier to model the external world as the matrix and all the cliche movie lines apply, any one not freed from the matrix is a possible threat, some are hopelessly dependent on the matrix they will die trying to save it,.... some evil ass architects created it wanting to keep us under control and suck away our energy. so with that in mind, its always helpful to just laugh at how ridiculous it all is.... any ways just like in the movie, we have to operate within the matrix, we know its fake but it is a system of rules and predictable behaviors, your friend taking the booster, thats predictable, you knew she would, i knew she would, she's in the ssystem, we can still be friends but just understand the rules / the game. work within the construct to slowly red pill if possible, and remember they cannot be told, they have to ask for it and see it with their own minds, so instead of telling them the truth, ask questions and indulge their delusions and see if that doesnt slowly lead to more curiousity on their end.
OK, with those 3 selves in mind. If you focus on the immediate self, and keep your health up/exercise etc it will keep your mind clear and will make it easier to work on your local self. Both of those selfs are about building you up, 1 is internal/physical being the other is your close surroundings your stockpile of buried nuts in prep for winter (if you were a squirrel). As long as you contribute to those 2 selves daily, even if small, it will give you the strength to continue and even able to participate in the matrix. If the matrix starts weighing you down, unplug. You're not doing yourself or anyone around you any good if you're not continueing with selves 1 & 2. And remember, that is what they want of you, they want you broken physically and mentally. Don't give them that. You're strong then that, you're better then that and more importantly, they exist in the matrix. you exist primarily in selves 1&2 where YOU have the control! Consider people who live in prison who have turned their lives around and are positive. they have taken control of 1&2, their matrix is far worse then ours. We are at war, our forefathers fought civil wars and all kinds of things, feel their strength it resides inside of you as well, we are in a war and that is the battle field.
I find Wes Watson on youtube to be really helpful. He's a former 10 year prison inmate, his message now is epic and it falls inline with my thoughts on selves 1&2 and being responsible / caring for something thats not you. He uses the term "your people." meaning your familiy, friends, neighbors, anyone you make promises to, be accountable to your people, be the best you for THEM.
also hope you have / find a partner pede, im missing that piece of the puzzle but i know it will also help a lot.
Anyways maybe the ramblings give a different perspective, clearly i wouldnt have written so much if i didnt care and wasn't also dealing with the same thoughts, like a lot of us. Cheers fren!
This is awesome. I love the idea of the “matrix self.” I think the problem I run into is that I get to feeling like the matrix is literally going to kill me and it makes me not want to care about the immediate and local self. Idk… I know for a fact that we will win in the end. I know that God always wins. I know that patriots will win too. There is just some sort of dark feeling in the back of my mind that tells me that I’m not gonna be one of the ones who survives it. I have no clue why I feel like that, but I do. I had so much confidence during the election and even months after the steal. Somewhere along the way that confidence had been lost
Normal life is filled with drudgery. But that's not only okay, it's beautiful. Because when duty calls (and it does call - or will for you eventually) you must be ready. That day to day routine, those tasks you do without much thought? They become your anchor when you must take action. How does the soldier, the spy, the executioner, or the interrogator return to baseline after attending to their necessary duties? They go back to the routine, the mundane, the boring and normal.
It's why people have a "day job". Something they choose to do when they aren't doing what they're 'called' to do.
If you plan accordingly, you can often use the tools, info, and tasks of the day-to-day routine to assist in your other endeavors.
If you work for an 'enemy' (say a corporation or agency that is diametrically opposed to your ideology and worldview), keep your eyes and ears open for opportunity. Sabotage what you safely can. Access information, names, dates, deeds, finances, etc. Above all be OBSERVANT. Organizations have been taken down by a single person willing to speak out.
If you're lucky enough to work for an agency or organization you support, stay aware and alert to those who work against your ideology. Visit the locations, offices, and venues of the enemy - but keep safe. Observe who is fully on board, who is the fellow traveler, who has doubts, and who works for the other side.
And when you get home, have that beer or glass of wine. Play with the kids. Mow that lawn, hit the gym. But remember it's all for a larger cause.
Exactly how I feel! I just want it to hurry up, one way or another. And it is frustrating that people like you and I feel like things are on hold, and then I see my normie friends and family acting like they don't have a care in the world. They are buying houses, getting pregnant, getting booster shots and thinking that things are peachy keen. I wish I could have their attitude, but I just can't with all the stuff we know. Its making me miserable lately
❤️ thanks for this. I’m having a rough week and needed to hear that
(hug)
I legitimately kek'd at that name. Lucille Ball was one of the few that proved girls can actually be funny :P
were all feeling it, but you've seen the matrix right? In the past 6 months weve freed more minds in the past 6 years. In the past 3 weeks more canadians have woken up to the width and breadth of the corruption. The system is scared...hah i just realized you may be having a rough week for others reasons. Either way, things will get better because they have to.
I’ve been “awake” for a few years now, but still sometimes I get shocked or overwhelmed at HOW corrupt it all really is. Like it still blows my mind. Seeing what Trudeau did to the truckers, seeing the issues going on now with Russia, my best friend telling me she got her booster today… it just fucking sucks some days. I am scared about the future. Hard to keep chugging along in life and trying to care about “normal” things. How do I care about going to the gym and staying in shape? How do I care to set financial goals when it looks like market crash is inevitable? It’s hard to live life and succeed with this black cloud. How do you continue on with normal daily activities and have any joy in it? It’s all just feeling pointless to me right now, and I’m not used to that at all. Have always been super goal oriented. Anyone have advice so I can change my outlook? Been struggling with this for like a year and it’s not getting better
I think it's completely normal to have that outlook. I haven't felt normal since Nov 3, when the election was stolen. I feel like my life has been on hold.
Many things are happening. Many unjust things. We are truly at war. Day after day justice is being abused. So it is depressing. I try to take joy in the little things of life. Eating and talking with my family, walking the dog. But lately, I am feeling more hopeful. Little by little we are having small wins.
My family has prepared as much as we can. We must win. This is the hill we win or die on. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. I already KNOW I am not going to a concentration camp.
I am cautiously optimistic about The Plan. We must wait and in the meantime, do whatever we can to push justice. I saw a talk by Catherine Austin Fitts who is a very intelligent and capable investment banker.
She said THEY CAN'T INSTALL COMMUNISM IF WE DON'T COMPLY.
I am just so resentful that I feel like an important time in my life is being stolen from me. I'm a single woman, early 30's, finally have all my shit together in life and felt like I was setting myself up for success. Feels like all that hard work is being taken right now. I'm just having a bad week I think, and will snap out of this soon. I do see the wins we are having, we have awesome things happening for sure with Durham and the mandates being lifted. Its just hard to stay strong week after week and month after month and not have any doubts or bad feelings. thank you for your comment, it does help to know others feel like this too
ironically ive never been goal oriented but i have a math / science mind so i passively accomplished a number of goals without ever having goals (which isn't a good thing). My point of saying that is I've never really had goals because everything seemed so vanilla and predictable. I had no motivation because i didnt want for anything. However, because of the acceleration lately i've gotten more motivated to work out, more motivated to have and do life goals (just bought a house last year) etc. I 100% know how you're feeling, what i have found helpful for me is to identify 3 "selves" for lack of a better term.
my "immediate self", my well being, health, philosophy, beliefs etc. I focus on those things when i first wake up, stretch/yoga maybe some light exercize, mediation/breathwork etc. not all those things each morning, but a subset depending on time & how i feel what i need. I make sure i've got my food situated (ive got autoimmune/gut issues so i stick to an autoimmune palea diet and with that comes making food as most places to eat use things i shouldnt have). Also having a regular sleep schedule super important and ending the day if a nice tea and recapping how the day went, what can i do better, what did i do well, etc
i look at my "local self." This includes my job, house, "wealth," things i own, and neighbors, friends, city (mines relatively small). I work on those things during the day. I completely understand you on financial goals, but i know the system is screwy but I suggest sticking to what you know. For instance, i know i need a place to live so i put most of my cash in buying this house. then i bought tools and other things that have value in its use and still hold value to me if the system collapses. Also bought up food and vitamins / seeds / gardening stuff. THings that are shelf stable for at least a couple years. That way i buy bulk on things i know i will use before it expires (hedges against inflation) also buying bulk usually has good discounts. I spend some time working in my yard, trimming trees, admiring the plants/animals on this small piece of land i am custodial on. (quote from movie "kingdom of heaven" - for what good is a man if he does not improve his lands - something to that effect, great movie). That specifically is helpful, having a responsibility for something. Not joking when i do yard work i take care to watch where i step so i avoid doing any unnecessary damage to the plants and bugs etc. They are all under my "domain" and i feel in some ways responsible to give them the best opportunity at life....so i could go on here as this thought process extends to frens, neighbors, job (career), etc
the "matrix self" no joke i find it so much easier to model the external world as the matrix and all the cliche movie lines apply, any one not freed from the matrix is a possible threat, some are hopelessly dependent on the matrix they will die trying to save it,.... some evil ass architects created it wanting to keep us under control and suck away our energy. so with that in mind, its always helpful to just laugh at how ridiculous it all is.... any ways just like in the movie, we have to operate within the matrix, we know its fake but it is a system of rules and predictable behaviors, your friend taking the booster, thats predictable, you knew she would, i knew she would, she's in the ssystem, we can still be friends but just understand the rules / the game. work within the construct to slowly red pill if possible, and remember they cannot be told, they have to ask for it and see it with their own minds, so instead of telling them the truth, ask questions and indulge their delusions and see if that doesnt slowly lead to more curiousity on their end.
OK, with those 3 selves in mind. If you focus on the immediate self, and keep your health up/exercise etc it will keep your mind clear and will make it easier to work on your local self. Both of those selfs are about building you up, 1 is internal/physical being the other is your close surroundings your stockpile of buried nuts in prep for winter (if you were a squirrel). As long as you contribute to those 2 selves daily, even if small, it will give you the strength to continue and even able to participate in the matrix. If the matrix starts weighing you down, unplug. You're not doing yourself or anyone around you any good if you're not continueing with selves 1 & 2. And remember, that is what they want of you, they want you broken physically and mentally. Don't give them that. You're strong then that, you're better then that and more importantly, they exist in the matrix. you exist primarily in selves 1&2 where YOU have the control! Consider people who live in prison who have turned their lives around and are positive. they have taken control of 1&2, their matrix is far worse then ours. We are at war, our forefathers fought civil wars and all kinds of things, feel their strength it resides inside of you as well, we are in a war and that is the battle field.
I find Wes Watson on youtube to be really helpful. He's a former 10 year prison inmate, his message now is epic and it falls inline with my thoughts on selves 1&2 and being responsible / caring for something thats not you. He uses the term "your people." meaning your familiy, friends, neighbors, anyone you make promises to, be accountable to your people, be the best you for THEM.
also hope you have / find a partner pede, im missing that piece of the puzzle but i know it will also help a lot.
Anyways maybe the ramblings give a different perspective, clearly i wouldnt have written so much if i didnt care and wasn't also dealing with the same thoughts, like a lot of us. Cheers fren!
Thanks for taking the time to write this.
This is awesome. I love the idea of the “matrix self.” I think the problem I run into is that I get to feeling like the matrix is literally going to kill me and it makes me not want to care about the immediate and local self. Idk… I know for a fact that we will win in the end. I know that God always wins. I know that patriots will win too. There is just some sort of dark feeling in the back of my mind that tells me that I’m not gonna be one of the ones who survives it. I have no clue why I feel like that, but I do. I had so much confidence during the election and even months after the steal. Somewhere along the way that confidence had been lost
Stay with it. All of it. Lovingly. And if you feel you can't be loving in light of this evil, remember who loves you. 👏
Normal life is filled with drudgery. But that's not only okay, it's beautiful. Because when duty calls (and it does call - or will for you eventually) you must be ready. That day to day routine, those tasks you do without much thought? They become your anchor when you must take action. How does the soldier, the spy, the executioner, or the interrogator return to baseline after attending to their necessary duties? They go back to the routine, the mundane, the boring and normal.
It's why people have a "day job". Something they choose to do when they aren't doing what they're 'called' to do.
If you plan accordingly, you can often use the tools, info, and tasks of the day-to-day routine to assist in your other endeavors.
If you work for an 'enemy' (say a corporation or agency that is diametrically opposed to your ideology and worldview), keep your eyes and ears open for opportunity. Sabotage what you safely can. Access information, names, dates, deeds, finances, etc. Above all be OBSERVANT. Organizations have been taken down by a single person willing to speak out.
If you're lucky enough to work for an agency or organization you support, stay aware and alert to those who work against your ideology. Visit the locations, offices, and venues of the enemy - but keep safe. Observe who is fully on board, who is the fellow traveler, who has doubts, and who works for the other side.
And when you get home, have that beer or glass of wine. Play with the kids. Mow that lawn, hit the gym. But remember it's all for a larger cause.
Exactly how I feel! I just want it to hurry up, one way or another. And it is frustrating that people like you and I feel like things are on hold, and then I see my normie friends and family acting like they don't have a care in the world. They are buying houses, getting pregnant, getting booster shots and thinking that things are peachy keen. I wish I could have their attitude, but I just can't with all the stuff we know. Its making me miserable lately
You just perfectly articulated how I have been feeling. You are not alone!
❤️
Your welcome.. Positive vibes for you !
Hang in there Fren.