I wouldn't have an answer for you lol but I'm not offended. I guess most of the corrupt states do seem to be in the north. Maybe that's just where the corrupt men of power congregated. The men fighting the Civil War were honorable but I'm sure the bankers on either side were not. I don't know that much about the Civil War but I do know slavery was not it's Main focus. As everything else it's about money & Industry.
There's not much to tell about the ancestry just that I come from Plantagenet family. I guess there's other royalty lines too, like lothair & William the conqueror. And of course Charlemagne. But of course one Royal Line begets another. I think a lot of us can trace back to him because there's just not many people who are alive back then & he has so many children. Cindy Crawford traces back to him too, I saw on the Ancestry show.
That's a shame about your sister. Autopilot is not fun. I stayed away from all medications. I figured no matter how bad it was that would make it worse. I wish I could have been like that about cigarettes. I sure love them. I'm trying to break up with them but it's the hardest because I feel like it'll be the final. I do need a break from them regardless and the internet for that matter 😄.
Since you've mentioned the cigarette ball and chain, and that evil scourge nicotine more than once, I'm beginning to think you are down right serious about kicking that old nasty ass habit.
It's a tough bitch to kick, but if I did it, you sure as hell can do it too.
What helped me the most was progressive relaxation tapes that I would run on a loop while I slept.
I engraved that psycho babble deep into my subconscious mind.
Count to ten, tagged with purification of light and warmth, then with detoxification
and desire for health, wealth and wisdom...( hells bells two out of three ain't bad, and someday I'm grateful to just hang on to one)...
Get to where you're jonesing the count to ten starts the defusing of the desire / need, then it's easy to postpone the flick of the bic for later, and later, and later yet still...next thing you know your a non smoker.
I just puff occasionally now, but haven't in the last 2 + months trying to get rid of a dry cough, of course I had to temporarily kick coffee to do it, I'm a caffeine fien as well, get the coffee brewing and the pipe billowing, stand aside a fast moving train coming thru.
I can cold turkey stop if ever I want or need to, but I can also puff occasionally and enjoy a bit of adult indulgence, but not have it be a monkey that has to be scratched on demand.
here is a link for something similar, I'll keep looking or listening to more to see if I can find exactly what did the trick for me in 92.
Damn. Two packs a day!? That's what my dad used to smoke. I can go over a pack but I definitely feel it the next day.
In high school my friend's mother could pick them up and put them down whenever she wanted. I wish I could be like that. My problem is that it is a reading companion, while I catch up on current events. I swear I think I'm going to start working 24 hours a day because I don't smoke much with the kids here lol.
I did quit for 3 years. It took months though. I started after a doctor's appointment in March 1 year. By October or September I was finally done for good. But then 3 years later my son quit college and came home smoking. He has since stopped but I started again and haven't put it down.
I don't really want to give it up, I love it. But I don't want to be a feeble old lady with a broken body from cigarettes. And I feel like if I don't stop that's going to be my future.
It was a blessing when all you had to worry about was the Cadmium and Lead levels in the tobacco, but now days with reconstituted tobacco and fire retardant chemical in the papers, the list of poisons now added are many many more.
Definitively makes you old before your time. Old leather skinned, toothless, no hair, brown stained fingers, ashtray smelling, scarecrow looking skeleton of a woman. ( I shudder to think ) No loving for the wicked or the ugly in this world, best you just climb your yellow and black butt back up on that band wagon, while there's still time for self preservation and hope for esoteric beauty.
So expensive too, packs are close to what, $10 a piece now, cartons run at about $90 ? I'm seriously thinking of growing some tobacco next year as a cash crop. (Or bootlegging them from across the border, someone else was saying they're $30 a carton south of the border, last time I bought a carton I think it was $12).
For many years I rolled my own cigars. I gotta liking them expensive Cuban Cigars ( so smooth, so sweet, so silky, few can even come close to comparisons )
from my time in Brazil, story of my life, whiskey wants on beer budgets.
The raw leafs are relatively inexpensive and I could buy them, just not the finish cigar, I just had to learn how to treat them, (they have to be fermented in order to break down the sugars and bring out the flavors) process them, roll them, and store them.
I still have the oak molds and half cuchillos and the humidor I made from my cigars rolling days. (A pipe is much easier, even with the constant cleaning) But I do Love a good cigar from time to time. If they weren't outlawed I probably never would have taken the time to learn how to do all that. When someone tells me I can't, well you gotta know, the forbidden cigar taste so much sweeter.
I caught me a double dose of that "oppositional defiant disorder" when I was just a little bitty baby, don't tell me you can't.
The cost of production per pack of cigarettes is at about 50¢ these days, that's a lot of money you're giving to the government in sin taxes, don't you think they get enough of your hard earned dollars? Money grubbing Bastards...
It's always good to be the Master of your life, and not the Slave to your addiction.
Good morning! Happy saturday. Hope it was a good week for you. Trying to reply on my phone is such a pain in the ass. I frequently hit the back button and end up deleting the whole damn thing. LOL phones ugh.
Anyway I was trying to say....
Yes the chemicals in cigarettes suck. I switched to organic when I started worrying about it. They are a lot more than $10 a pack. So expensive to kill myself haha. My grandmother definitely had that loose and leathery skin. So reminiscent of sun damage.
I never smoked cigars. My children's father used to sell them for a time. He liked being cultured so he would try new things.
Thanks for offering your help. This is definitely something I have to do on my own. I feel like I'm getting there. It's a mind frame thing. I've had a few practice days that were successful. It was a lot easier to motivate myself when my kids were younger. Now that they're older and making their own mistakes it's a little easier to forgive myself and enjoy my own 😅
I wouldn't have an answer for you lol but I'm not offended. I guess most of the corrupt states do seem to be in the north. Maybe that's just where the corrupt men of power congregated. The men fighting the Civil War were honorable but I'm sure the bankers on either side were not. I don't know that much about the Civil War but I do know slavery was not it's Main focus. As everything else it's about money & Industry.
There's not much to tell about the ancestry just that I come from Plantagenet family. I guess there's other royalty lines too, like lothair & William the conqueror. And of course Charlemagne. But of course one Royal Line begets another. I think a lot of us can trace back to him because there's just not many people who are alive back then & he has so many children. Cindy Crawford traces back to him too, I saw on the Ancestry show.
That's a shame about your sister. Autopilot is not fun. I stayed away from all medications. I figured no matter how bad it was that would make it worse. I wish I could have been like that about cigarettes. I sure love them. I'm trying to break up with them but it's the hardest because I feel like it'll be the final. I do need a break from them regardless and the internet for that matter 😄.
Hey my Bella Bee,
Since you've mentioned the cigarette ball and chain, and that evil scourge nicotine more than once, I'm beginning to think you are down right serious about kicking that old nasty ass habit.
It's a tough bitch to kick, but if I did it, you sure as hell can do it too.
What helped me the most was progressive relaxation tapes that I would run on a loop while I slept. I engraved that psycho babble deep into my subconscious mind.
Count to ten, tagged with purification of light and warmth, then with detoxification and desire for health, wealth and wisdom...( hells bells two out of three ain't bad, and someday I'm grateful to just hang on to one)...
Get to where you're jonesing the count to ten starts the defusing of the desire / need, then it's easy to postpone the flick of the bic for later, and later, and later yet still...next thing you know your a non smoker.
I just puff occasionally now, but haven't in the last 2 + months trying to get rid of a dry cough, of course I had to temporarily kick coffee to do it, I'm a caffeine fien as well, get the coffee brewing and the pipe billowing, stand aside a fast moving train coming thru.
I can cold turkey stop if ever I want or need to, but I can also puff occasionally and enjoy a bit of adult indulgence, but not have it be a monkey that has to be scratched on demand.
here is a link for something similar, I'll keep looking or listening to more to see if I can find exactly what did the trick for me in 92.
https://students.dartmouth.edu/wellness-center/wellness-mindfulness/mindfulness-meditation/guided-audio-recordings
Now mind you before 92 I was a, 2 pack a day, no filter camel smoking, cigar chomping, tobacco chewing, skol dipping fool.
That monkey on my back was like king kong's grand daddy.
Is this what you really want to do ?
Damn. Two packs a day!? That's what my dad used to smoke. I can go over a pack but I definitely feel it the next day.
In high school my friend's mother could pick them up and put them down whenever she wanted. I wish I could be like that. My problem is that it is a reading companion, while I catch up on current events. I swear I think I'm going to start working 24 hours a day because I don't smoke much with the kids here lol.
I did quit for 3 years. It took months though. I started after a doctor's appointment in March 1 year. By October or September I was finally done for good. But then 3 years later my son quit college and came home smoking. He has since stopped but I started again and haven't put it down.
I don't really want to give it up, I love it. But I don't want to be a feeble old lady with a broken body from cigarettes. And I feel like if I don't stop that's going to be my future.
It was a blessing when all you had to worry about was the Cadmium and Lead levels in the tobacco, but now days with reconstituted tobacco and fire retardant chemical in the papers, the list of poisons now added are many many more.
Definitively makes you old before your time. Old leather skinned, toothless, no hair, brown stained fingers, ashtray smelling, scarecrow looking skeleton of a woman. ( I shudder to think ) No loving for the wicked or the ugly in this world, best you just climb your yellow and black butt back up on that band wagon, while there's still time for self preservation and hope for esoteric beauty.
So expensive too, packs are close to what, $10 a piece now, cartons run at about $90 ? I'm seriously thinking of growing some tobacco next year as a cash crop. (Or bootlegging them from across the border, someone else was saying they're $30 a carton south of the border, last time I bought a carton I think it was $12).
For many years I rolled my own cigars. I gotta liking them expensive Cuban Cigars ( so smooth, so sweet, so silky, few can even come close to comparisons ) from my time in Brazil, story of my life, whiskey wants on beer budgets.
The raw leafs are relatively inexpensive and I could buy them, just not the finish cigar, I just had to learn how to treat them, (they have to be fermented in order to break down the sugars and bring out the flavors) process them, roll them, and store them. I still have the oak molds and half cuchillos and the humidor I made from my cigars rolling days. (A pipe is much easier, even with the constant cleaning) But I do Love a good cigar from time to time. If they weren't outlawed I probably never would have taken the time to learn how to do all that. When someone tells me I can't, well you gotta know, the forbidden cigar taste so much sweeter.
I caught me a double dose of that "oppositional defiant disorder" when I was just a little bitty baby, don't tell me you can't.
The cost of production per pack of cigarettes is at about 50¢ these days, that's a lot of money you're giving to the government in sin taxes, don't you think they get enough of your hard earned dollars? Money grubbing Bastards...
It's always good to be the Master of your life, and not the Slave to your addiction.
Let me know how I can help.
Good morning! Happy saturday. Hope it was a good week for you. Trying to reply on my phone is such a pain in the ass. I frequently hit the back button and end up deleting the whole damn thing. LOL phones ugh.
Anyway I was trying to say....
Yes the chemicals in cigarettes suck. I switched to organic when I started worrying about it. They are a lot more than $10 a pack. So expensive to kill myself haha. My grandmother definitely had that loose and leathery skin. So reminiscent of sun damage.
I never smoked cigars. My children's father used to sell them for a time. He liked being cultured so he would try new things.
Thanks for offering your help. This is definitely something I have to do on my own. I feel like I'm getting there. It's a mind frame thing. I've had a few practice days that were successful. It was a lot easier to motivate myself when my kids were younger. Now that they're older and making their own mistakes it's a little easier to forgive myself and enjoy my own 😅