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Sounds fascinating. I'll have to dig into that story. Egyptology has always been a huge fascination for me. I used to wear a gold Eye of Ra necklace for years.
I actually broke link to open and close it, accidentally around 2 months after I finally got sober right around December 2019.
I had it the entire 5 years I was hopelessly addicted and always thought it was a good luck charm that kept me protected from ever dying from an overdose, or getting robbed or arrested. So it had alot of sentimental value for me for a long time.
But for some reason, when it finally broke, something inside me told me that I was "freed". And I felt like it was best to finally be rid of it.
For perhaps it wasn't so much that it was protecting me from negativity, but instead ensuring that nothing happened to me that would ever allow me to break free from my vices on my own.
I'm not the type to believe in most superstitions, but after learning more about how much into the occult the Egyptians were, and how important symbology was too them, I'm compelled to believe there must be something more to it.
Oh magic and occultism are 100% real. Just not in the Harry Potter sort of way. Glad you got rid of the eye of ra fren! Definitely not a good luck charm if you did actually believe in a power coming from it. And that's the thing with magic, you have to believe it's real for it to work. You set yourself up as the 'god' of your own world, and through that, you can change your own reality. So magic and mysticism are inherently something apart from God, because you begin to believe you don't need Him for anything. That you can change reality on your own with your own power. It even flows into alchemy and the symbolism of the baphomet. Duality. Yin and yang, black and white, good and evil. As above, so below. In magic there's is no good and bad, only what works for you. Magic would have you believe God and the devil are two sides of the same coin. The same being. That's where the temptation is. Doesn't the devil want to be worshipped as God....? Doesn't the devil worship his own power above all things? And that's where magic leads in essence. The worship of your own power and rejecting the infinite power of God our creator in favor of your own. So yeah just a little tidbit of info I've researched into fren lol. Lots to take in
I can empathize with alot of what you're saying. Throughout my college years I got to experience wielding unbelievable amounts of power for the first time. Incredible social influence as I was the VP of my fraternity and also coordinated every house party as well as group social events with the other sororities at my school. I knew so many people and grew accustomed to random guys sucking up to me and being overly nice because they knew if they had my approval, they would be able to get invited to all the cool parties and private outings my club would coordinate throughout the year.
I had really pretty girls constantly asking their friends to introduce them to me because sometimes they'd be too intimidated to do so themselves. Even my female friends whom I'd remained platonic with for the entirety of our friendship, knew very well that being "just friends", with me was something that could change at any time, and for a few of them, DID end up changing, as I gracefully walked back and forth across the supposed "friendzone", at my own discretion.
I got into this 32k a year university on a full financial aid package as well as a scholarship that ensured I was paid around 2-3k EXTRA every semester. That money of which I would immediately buy a pound of weed with, and resell it in pieces over each month to effectively double my investment, and so I ALWAYS had absurd amounts of cash on hand to spend lavishly on drugs, alcohol and to bribe people to do favors for me (like cutting the line at a club or sneaking a VIP bracelet from one of the club promoters I knew personally)
I was getting everything i ever thought I wanted during these times. My ego grew to an incredible size, and I started to stray away from my humble roots as I began to view myself as a demigod of my own universe.
So it was to no surprise when what went up so high, began to eventually come back all the way down as my college years came to an end, and all the people who propped up the existence of my virtual "kingdom", suddenly all disappeared and scattered across the nation as they went on to the various grad schools and job opportunities that were lined up next in their respective life paths.
With time, I began to feel empty inside, and so I sought to fill that void, with artificial happiness obtained by incessant drug use. And inevitably, I began to self destruct as I retreated inwards, pushed away all the friends I had left and sought comfort within the deepest recesses of my mind, where while on drugs, I could continue having my own kingdom again and i could be happy, even though I knew it was no longer real...
Those were some dark times. I'm very fortunate to have had a family caring enough to intervene and pull me out of that hole I had dug myself into, regardless of how much I protested and insisted I didn't need anyone's help.
There are many lessons I took from that whole experience. And I'll always look at power in a completely different light, as I strive to take this newfound awareness of what great power did to me when I was younger, and ensure I handle it more responsibly whenever I encounter it again in the future.
My dude you got it spot on. The bible says pride comes before destruction. I've had personal experience with that, not to the extent of what happened to you, but I got a job as a GM a few years ago (Im in my 20s) and like you, I had the most experience out of anyone at my job and thought of myself as a demigod of sorts. I had the answer for just about everything. Even more than the CEO and COO. Well God knocked me down a few pegs when I got fired from there. It hurt. The circumstances were really hard on me and I drank heavily for a month or two until I got my current job. It took me a long time to come to terms with my pride and the downfall because of it. But I realized God was trying to show me that humility is the key to true strength and power. Self sacrificing for the betterment of those around you. Being an example for others as you try to emulate the way Christ acted. It's hard and I falter more than I care to admit, but my life has improved tremendously after I quit relying on my own strength, and began relying on the strength God gives to me. I'm glad things are looking up for you my beloved fren 😁 If I may, I would encourage you to pray and talk to God a little bit. I'm sure He would love to hear from you! PS: I don't think MJ is a bad thing at all, but a gift from God when used and not abused
I really appreciate your insight, fren. Yeah I'm 28 now, been clean from opiates and benzos since October 2019, so it's been a little over 2 years now.
I really like this tidbit you mentioned towards the end, "my life has improved tremendously after I quit relying on my own strength, and began relying on the strength God gives to me".
I like that part alot. It's so true. I've always believed in God, but during that time period I found myself so high on power and abundance, I really did begin to stray away from my humble roots and my relationship with God diminished more than it ever had before, which I feel is truly what led to my own undoing.
For I would not have become so prideful if I maintained my spiritual connection to God and remembered that every gift bestowed upon me, was needed to be embraced as a gift and handled with great care. And the importance of humility was a requirement to ever hope to maintain such power responsibly.
And yeah I feel the same way about Marijuana as you mentioned in that last part. Which is a big reason I never felt guilty about profiting from it, I met many people who were actually being helped significantly from Marijuana, including one of my best friends to this day who suffers from Cyclical vomiting syndrome and only finds relief from extreme nausea by smoking pot every morning and as needed throughout the day.
Shes a really smart, pretty blonde whose one of the few people who remained totally loyal to me as a caring friend both when i became an egotistic, womanizing douchebag who kept sleeping with her sorority sisters 😂 AND also after all my friends moved away, all that weed money dried up, i started doing drugs by myself, stopped socializing and eventually got evicted from my condo.
She's one of two women who's friendship I can genuinely say I valued more than the prospect of sleeping with her... although I definitely would if the timing is right again one day. (I had a chance one time. But she was dating my Pledgemaster who recruited me into the club when I was 18 and he was a senior and I would never betray a loyal friend like that so I had to reject her advances. It still hurts to think about how lol)
It really is true when they say, "The road to hell is paved with good intentions". Anyways, I appreciate the convo fren. You have some valuable insight. 👊🏼