This has been an odd feeling I've been having for the past couple weeks. I feel like I was "baptized" and born again, but I can never really pinpoint when it happened. Over time I lost identity of who I was growing up, as if the lockdowns completely erased all sense of who I was. I still have memories of my younger self of course, but now they don't really feel like they're my memories. A lot of my ambitions remain the same, but I still like there's a lot missing. Think of switching from Windows to Linux and you're still struggling to learn all the features. That's how, I guess, my soul feels.
Anyone else experiencing this? Is this supposed to be a good thing?
I completely understand what you are saying. The last couple years have changed my life for better and for worse. My perception of the world obviously is completely different because of the great awakening. Also, I added Jesus to the daily diet. Paul said 'Do not be conformed to the world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, and that's pretty much going to sum it up. Real life is far stranger than fiction. I cannot listen to music like I used to, watch movies like I used to..it's a rebirth, as you said. You are definitely not alone. I have questioned my sanity numerous times and wondered if we are in purgatory or hell. Those are the bad days, at least. Other days my heart is on fire for Jesus and I feel like the world wants me to hate him, so I will love him more and more. I essentially have become everything that is opposite of what the world wants me to be. Be YOU, friend!
I understand the movies bit, but music? What did you listen to before and why did you stop?
For me it’s the message or the words in music. When I was younger I listened to ICP and it’s VULGAR and full of profanity. Imagine 10 years later you’re talking to Jesus and the lyrics about murder and slaughter start running through your head. It’s not pleasant.
Romans 12:2 is what I use to combat those thoughts.
I See Pee is trash man. You should listen to Iron Maiden.