So I was hanging out with a friend who is a centrist but seems to lean left, he knows I am conservative, but I don't go to deep into politics with him, just that I don't trust the establishment of either party. He knows I am unjabbed and never wore a mask.
Anyway, he brings up the jab. Said he went to get an MRI in his neck area. The tech asked him if he was jabbed, then asked when, he told the tech mar/apr, don't know the date, the tech pressed for a date, he didn't remember.
I was thinking this was leading to a booster question. But, not even close. He questioned the tech about why it mattered. The tech said the vaccine is showing up in MRIs, inflammation and showing past the blood brain barrier. My friend was shocked.
He is not getting boosted, hope he doesn't have complications from his initial doses, but glad he is waking up. He started questioning masks and said anyone that still wears one is suspect. He also questioned why they are still pushing the vax even though it does nothing for omicron. He says the majority of people he knows got omicron with the vax and without and all had similar symptoms.
People are waking up in stages. Waking up doesn't have to mean become fully awake. Waking up can be simply questioning things for the first time. Glad to see it happening, it gives me hope.
Circumstances made you do it ....
However, you want to frame it, this is what it comes down to. What is more, I am sure you detest the fact you are suffering from the consequences, all because you ,in essence, wanted to do right by your family, right?
How would you feed them? Living out of a car or in a tent over the winter? ha, how about the constant nagging ....the look on your wife' s face .....
There may be a myriad of these ideas in your head, moving you to sacrifice that which is most valuable in your life: your integrity.
It is a very tough and hard lesson, life just gave you. It reminds me of a passage St Paul wrote about Moses, that he'd rather be maltreated in unison with his people as a christ, than enjoy the good stuff of a prince of Egypt.
And here you see, how good intentions are perverted. No matter how much you try to talk yourself into programming your brain to accept you did it for the right reasons, it does not work. Why? You body is signalling everyday, those reasons are BS.
You anger, is not meant for us, it is the expression of your own state of war within you. Please, forgive yourself, and accept the fact, it was your choice, and you chose poorly. The sooner you can accept this, the sooner you can start healing yourself.
The question is of course, will you do so again, when confronted with the same choice one more time?
I know someone that got a jab early, never got the second jab, then started using fake vax cards and making fake vax cards for others to avoid the immediate consequences of not getting jabbed.
I also know a divorced anti-vax guy whose ex-wife got all his kids jabbed without telling him and they keep testing positive for Covid. These are some strange and sad days.
Me personally, I don't follow the law anymore, I do what I want and the only people I have to answer to are my conscious and God. I have a moral code with people but as far as laws made by men, I ignore them and make them up as I go based on my own moral code. Given the opportunity I'll act, until then I'll game and hide in their system.
you can go fuck yourself see above.