I got to a very low place in my life. I was extremely depressed for a very long time. I spent a lot of time researching everything I could get my hand on and noticed some patterns.
Nikola Tesla talks about frequency and vibration. Dr. Masaru Emoto did experiments with water that proves that our emotions affect water. Our bodies are made up of mostly water so I started trying to raise my vibration by forcing myself to be happy. You know that feeling you get when you hug somebody and you just let go and melt into them? I would literally do that with a pillow. I would act like a kid and just be silly. I listened to Binaural beats and solfeggio frequencies in my headphones because I knew about vibration experiments with sand on a plate and how each frequency created a pattern. I knew about sacred geometry and noticed that most religions chant or use different sounds.
I started having vivid dreams and everything slowed down. My emotions became easy to control and nothing seemed to bother me anymore. It was like the movie Limitless when the drugs kicked in. I was seeing two and three steps ahead and everything became clear. The synchronicities were so intense I thought I was going crazy. I started seeing 11:11 everywhere so I googled it and found out about spiritual awakening.
Everything the new age people talked about was what I was going through. I never paid much attention to them before because I thought they were weirdo hippies. lol. Then I started looking into what they were talking about and it all made sense. Ascension is real and it comes with symptoms. The year before all of this I actually went to my doctor and complained about ringing in my ears and my body feeling like it was vibrating etc.
I did no drugs and stopped all the medication that I was on 4 months earlier. It was blood pressure meds and heartburn meds. Nothing for depression or mental issues.
I know God is real. People have different names for the same thing. Source, The higher self, Subconscious mind, etc.
I can only describe what I went through from the knowledge I have acquired throughout my life. I do not want to push my beliefs on anybody but I feel like I should share my experience. I wish somebody would have told me but looking back I realize that they did and I just thought they were nuts and blew them off. lol.
The pineal gland thing is legit. Learn to control your emotions [Vibe] and calm your mind by meditating. Society is designed to keep us in a low vibration [every man for himself]. Tune in to the unconditional love frequency and your "Third Eye" will open. Synchronicities will start to happen and your cognitive abilities will drastically improve. Some call it enlightenment or Illumination [Iluminati]. This is the secret they are trying to hide. This is what the "all-seeing eye" represents.
Everybody goes through their own journey that is best for them. God knows what he is doing and puts us through the challenges we need. IMO
Yeah, the desire to change began in December 2018. By May I was communicating with family i hadn't spoken to in years. I had buried the past. What a relief. And I felt I had lots of momentum. It was in July 2019 while giving thanks to God, in the ocean, for all the things that happened to me to bring me to that moment, I left the water vibrating. That's where I felt truly alive. I have to ask, did you get a strong urge to read every spiritual text you could get your hands on?
I occasionally have dreams of flying through space and feel the vibration again. I also noticed my dreams more. I started a dream journal because I would get messages. Just as Covid started, one of my dreams told me to start walking and it would help me though difficult times. It turned out to be a huge stress relief.
Yeah, same here, with emotions. I just observe everything around me and in me. I became very detached from my emotions. I still try to feel everything... whether i'm sad or angry but it all melts away if i simply observe it.
Sorry about your ex and visitations. Hope things settled out by now.
That's funny about diet. I immediately became sensitive to food. I can't eat too much heavily processed food or fast food. I dropped almost 10 lbs that summer. I had cut back on meat except for eggs, dairy or seafood. And suddenly I couldn't drink coffee. That was tough.
Right now, I'm still changing and learning new things about myself. And there are triggers from very close people in my life that still occur but that's ok. There were people that fell out of my life, new people that came in, and others that still stay around. It seems it's all as it should be and just accept what happens now. Anyway... Thanks for sharing!
I went from digging deep into conspiracy theory stuff into the spiritual stuff. But like you, I am still changing and learning new things about myself. My whole perception of the world has changed.
I started walking too. I would go to the conservation area nearby and walk the trails every chance I got. Being in nature helped me tremendously.
I actually woke up from a dream this morning that guided me to share this story. That dream was the only reason I shared this.
You are welcome and thank you for sharing. I like knowing there are other people going through this. :)
The movie Soul even describes a spiritual awakening. https://youtu.be/YvNOMqt9Q2s