I don’t post much, I read frequently… I want to reach out because today I’ve been hurting badly, and I think you guys will understand the depth of the situation. But I also think this it’s a good example of how some of us are quietly suffering and hoping Q is right and things will get better.

I have a chronic illness, without going into details it’s been like living in a prison. The condition is POTS or something similar. It was unheard of when I first started begging doctors for help in my early teens, but then I got a diagnosis at 24 when it started being known as a health problem young (mostly white) women can get. So imagine my additional horror when my condition that took 12 years to even get diagnosed with, suddenly was just called a possible “Covid injury” (cough, probably a jab injury). The extra attention has made getting treatment both more difficult and less difficult at the same time.

I use to think it was just bad luck of my family’s genetic predisposition, but lately (because of the POTS /Covid injury thing) I’ve become very suspicious of if I have this because of a vaccine injury from whatever cocktail they gave us early 90s kids here in the south. It’s a frustrating think to wonder about, so I try not to get fixated on it…

I have used pretty much used every option our circles say to try for chronic or related illnesses… of and all of the ones I could trust from doctors… Trying out one more specialist across the nation before we give up and accept this is what it is. Currently I’m on a twice a day medication that insurance won’t cover and it’s $16 a day for Americans, but only $2-4 a day from Canada or Turkey. So when international shipping issues happen, it sure hurts to feel how expensive my “privilege” is.

I miss working, I loved my career I was headed for in my family’s business. Social Security Disability is a crap show that seems to want me to jump through so many hoops that I’d certainly just go to work if I could do them (not living in a large city makes the number of appointments that want you doing literally a part time job)... It feels like just another form of rigged system.

Normal life milestones have been hijacked… For example, having a child now is something only God himself could will into possibility… Which certainly stings when I read the posts on here about depopulation. Perhaps I’m unlucky, or perhaps my life is an example of the bad guys winning.

It’s not all bad, I have a great (based) family, and while bedbound managed to meet and marry my wonderful (based) husband. They are amazing and certainly better than most families I read about or see these days, and I’m wildly thankful.

But on top of everything I’ve talked about, I’ve recently seen them all screwed over by our government in a few different ways that I can’t share details of, and accumulatively there will probably over $100,000 in lost money/expenses caused by poor government management… Not including the burdens of state and federal taxes.

So guys, it’s been a lot. Sorry if any part got too whiny, but I appreciate the chance to vent on this forum in a general talk area. So many forums meant for my type of problems are gross woke cesspools that seem to “turn tragedy into hell”.