Man, I'm really sorry to hear all of that. All I can say is you need to remind yourself that peace isn't something you seek in an external state of conditions; it's already with you. All of that stuff is designed to take your energy in exactly the way that it's doing rn... don't let it win! Learn some breathing techniques and unplug from the current events for as long as it takes. Focus on whatever you enjoy doing. We'll be here when you get back, still fighting the good fight.