I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
You are not alone, brother.
There's an old saying that has always resonated with me and now it resonates with my 23 year old son:
"The price of being a sheep is boredom. The price of being a wolf is loneliness. Choose one or the other with great care."
It's tough to be a wolf. But wolves are also social and we are a pack here. There are women that are wolves. Good women that you will inevitably run into one day.
One other piece of advice regarding your statement: "I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie." Learn to compartmentalize. It's an essential skill, otherwise it's impossible to lead a life of any kind of normalcy. As you well know, we are literally living under a government that is controlled by a cabal that wants to kill us.
It's difficult to compartmentalize, but it's a necessary survival skill as it's the only way to experience any joy as we fight in this war.
You are not alone, fren.