I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
Bro... you're not crazy. You're not alone. We get your pain...from avoiding the jab bs, to finding a non-MTV chick. Believe it or not, a pet can take the edge off loneliness and help you make the right decision when it comes to a mate. This world is the opitome of insanity. When your demons come to get you, you need a rock or anchor to cling to. I find counting my blessings, and reminding myself how much worse things could always be, helps to get me centered and level headed again. From a spiritual perspective, find whatever resonates with you and your path and use it, like tools in your proverbial toolbox. Some days it takes everything you got just to get through. This is par for the course when you're in the gifted class. 😜 It's very much like the Matrix... when you're out, you can't really unremember it all and go back to blissful ignorance. Such is the burden of being more awake than the herd. We all have to fight back the mental terrors that crop up from time to time...you are certainly not deserted, marooned or stranded...you have us slobs to talk to. 😁