So grateful that I found this community which led me to finding God, because without that I dont know how I would have gotten through today.
First I found out my cat passed away, which already hurt...but then minutes after that, my grandfather ive taken care of for 12 years took his last breath and I lost him too. The only thing that kept me from shattering was knowing hes been suffering for a long time and now that suffering is over. I really wanted to numb the pain with a bottle - but i went to an AA meeting instead.
It still doesnt feel real. 😔
Edit - just want to add since several people have already said get another cat - we have other cats, 3 actually, and 1 is with me now (the brother of the one that passed actually) so getting another one isn't really what I need. But thank you for the suggestion.
I'm sorry fren, I wish I had the words to heal your pain, but it doesn't work that way...
I had to put a cat I'd known since he was born down a few years ago, and it tore me apart inside... It still hurts to think about honestly. (Not to diminish what you're doing through, by the way, losing a family member is always harder)
The best advice I can give is to find an outlet for the pain. Something creative or something physical. Both if you can help it... Right now you're a bundle of raw nerves and every little thing is going to set you off in one way or another... Finding an outlet for all that energy can help, even though it won't fill that empty spot in your heart...