Something changed on August 8th. I sensed it in the spirit, and I knew that it was big. It came with the scary feeling of great movement as if the winds on high were contending, or an army of angels paused for battle had been released to go to war. What I felt was confirmed to me last night by Robin Bullock in a special broadcast of Elijah Streams. I believe the time of God's patience is over, and that heaven's armies are now on the offensive.
I saw something else last night when I was sitting outside on my porch. (I had not yet seen the interview with Robin Bullock.) I was watching a video of a group of patriots discussing the FBI raid on the president's home, just considering things, when I saw a light in the sky. It was as if I were catching it out of the corner of my eye. My spirit instantly perked up, and I looked in that direction to see an angel descending with a big sword in his hand. He was full of light, but the figure was translucent, like he was a hologram I could see through. I didn't trust the dimness of my spiritual vision, and wanted to be sure about it, so I asked the Lord if I had seen something real. He confirmed that it was real, and then told me the angel was His angel of death. He said that tomorrow (today, August 10) a lot of people were going to die, and that it would continue to the end of the month. He said the angel would seek them out, those who were slated for death.
I am 100% sure about what I felt Monday night. I am less certain about the angel thing, but it's obvious what would confirm whether that was real, and I think it will be quite obvious if it bears out. I will add that everything I've experienced came with the strong sense that the action was directed at the enemies of God, who have been stupidly opposing Him at every turn despite being given every chance to change their ways. I also have the strong conviction that the people who truly belong to Him and the ones He is doing all this to help have nothing to fear. They will only see it with their eyes.
I've yelled a few times like that in prayer, and I have been just as unsavory in my language. It's not advisable to get into complaining or making accusations, but it's better to be honest with God about how you feel because He knows all about it anyway, and He really loves us. Who better to vent your frustrations to than Him? Once you get that out of the way, you can move on to commune with Him, working out prayer strategies to bring solutions.
My own perspective about God and how He does things changed a long time ago. I came to realize that He is far bigger than I tended to think. (I should have gotten that sooner, but my box is missing a few crayons.) You can see it in the Bible. He says in Isaiah 40 that all the nations together are like less than nothing to Him. In Psalm 2 He laughs at people who think they're going to eject Him from the earth (a prophecy for today, by the way.) My realization has led me to believe God is never on the defensive or reacting to circumstances as if they took Him by surprise, and that means He choses the times to intervene according to His own wisdom and purposes. It has made me more patient in spite of my emotions, and that has been rewarding.
I don't know how the Father might feel frustration from people continually defying Him or failing to have faith. Jesus certainly felt that way at times with His disciples on earth. He was in the Father, and the Father was in Him, so that was all of God feeling it. The Lord certainly knows what we go through, and not from an "on high" perspective. He was here, in a human body.
I think that for us, our feelings of frustration usually have more to do with feeling helpless than anything else, but the truth is that we're not helpless. We belong to God with perfect righteousness in Christ, and He hears our prayers. There are a lot of promises in the Bible about His willingness to answer, and they are there so we can fix our faith on them. (See 2 Peter 1:1-4––it is by believing and applying His promises that we overcome. Also, Matt. 7:7-8. Mark 11:22-24. John 16:24––Jesus certainly expected that we would be heard.) There is also the authority Jesus left to us in Him. He gave us power over all the power of the devil. (Luke 10:19. Matt. 28:16. 2 Cor. 10:4. John 14:13 & 14.) That is absolutely true, but it can seem like it's not true because the devil is lawless, and he gets away with what he can when we don't put our foot down. There is so much we don't have to put up with.
Nothing is impossible for God. Think what we could do with even a little faith. We can actually change the world. As God's representatives, we can bring His kingdom to the earth by establishing His will here. I believe this with all my heart, but not just because it says so in the Bible. I have seen it. Faith really does change things.
I know my frustrations are so minuscule in the grand scheme of things, but it definitely made me feel better to vent. I feel God was able to temper my frustrations. By no means was my cussing directed to Him, but it was more so describing the emotions dwelling inside me about events playing out around the country/world. I guess you could say, I fall into the 'helpless' segment. I want to do more, so I continually ask Him for guidance. I feel, I'm just one small person in a good vs. evil battle the size I just cannot fathom. The evil battles playing out across the country are slowly hitting home, and I find myself turning to God now more than ever. I'm upset I didn't turn to Him more frequently sooner. I guess that is part of the Great Awakening that's occurring.
Yeah, we're pretty small, but God is pretty big, and your connection to Him is a lot more significant than you might realize. There is nothing between you and Him in Christ. The things that cloud that up are all in our own heads from stuff we learned in the world. Unfortunately, a lot of it comes from religious teaching that is different from what God says about Himself and His salvation.
I'm sure He'll give you all the guidance you need as you lean into Him because He's delighted to do that for you, but if you want to take it to another level, seek to understand Him. Seek Him to know Him. The more you know Him and understand Him, the more your guidance will come from that. You can see a look in a good friend's eye and know exactly what he's thinking because you know him. It will be like that, and He will show you meaningful things to do that will make a difference if that's your desire.
It's something of a paradox, isn't it? We strive to seek God, but in that we must relax, knowing that it is His good pleasure to give us the kingdom. We strive to have holy conduct, all the time knowing our righteousness before Him is absolutely perfect and can never be earned by anything we can do.
Anyway, I pray you get the answeres you seek, that you will have success in all that you do, and that all the good you desire will come to your hand. Remember to have some fun (good fun) in spite of what's going on in the world. It'll balance your mind against all that awfulness, but the best thing about it is that the devil really hates it. God isn't the frowny uptight miser portrayed by most religious traditions. He enjoys being with us, and He likes to hear us laugh.