Have you started meditating? Meditation combined with ethical behavior & prayer is the only way to truly rid yourself of hate, anger, lust, greed, gluttony... You seem like you wish to/ are initiating into the straight (and narrow) path.
I will leave a link for methodical meditation for you, may it bring you closer to God and your goal of loving everyone (hint: true love can only form when you've eliminated hate - any virtue does not come from behaving virtuously, true virtue comes naturally as a product of the absence of the corresponding vice).
Have you started meditating? Meditation combined with ethical behavior & prayer is the only way to truly rid yourself of hate, anger, lust, greed, gluttony... You seem like you wish to/ are initiating into the straight (and narrow) path. I will leave a link for methodical meditation for you, may it bring you closer to God and your goal of loving everyone (hint: true love can only form when you've eliminated hate - any virtue does not come from behaving virtuously, true virtue comes naturally as a product of the absence of the corresponding vice).
https://glorian.org/learn/courses-and-lectures/beginning-here-and-now/beginning-meditation-theory-and-practice?highlight=WyJtZWRpdGF0aW9uIiwiYmVnaW5uZXIiXQ==