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two weeks ago on Monday my sweet sister Petra died.
While my mother, my niece and Hellmut got better (after the "Rona" influenza), I got the message that Petra was also in hospital with lung infection.
As soon as I could I drove the 300 km to her and she also already was out of the hospital again after one week.
But she was not well enough with her lungs, after the four days I visited her, she was again in hospital. I was called that it would not look good. I drove to her, but it was already too late.
She was gone, she was gone totally peacefully - so peacefully I know for sure that she is with God now. I sat there at the bed, looking in her peaceful face and only then I really knew how much I loved her.
I could not write about it, because the sadness would have overwhelmed me. And I have to function, preparing the funeral, being their for my mother, my niece, a lot bureaucracy, making decisions, phone calls, etc.
So I lurked around here, with you fren family, commented and posted to stay "normal" and distracted, not to fall into the abyss of absolute sadness.
Then my mother once again came into hospital now at the weekend. She is o.k., but I don't know wether this will really stay this way and how long. I hope so very much.
But now my strength is leaving, too much and many obstacles make it really complicated for me to stay strong and clear. The sadness has got me, but I still have to function the next two weeks until the funeral is over. Until then there is no time or room for this sadness.
Yes, she was vaccinated. The hospital said it was probably rapid lung cancer. I had Artemisia Annua with me to give to her, but I came too late.
There are studies that it helps very quickly for cancer, especially lung cancer.
Perhaps you want to consider this, if you know someone developping cancer.
Once again thank you for all the prayers you sent for Petra, for my family and me which helped in tough and dark times. I often felt it immediately before reading your answers to my post with the prayers.
God bless and protect you all as well as your families.
She is in heaven, always watching you with loving eyes. And sees all the enfolding with our movement with all the fun and sad or horrific stories. But she now has the 40.000 ft view and knows it all.
You love her very much and she knows that. I wish you that you can have a good time with her on Dec 14th, with a candle and prayers. God bless you and send you comforting love and peace for that day.
One of our prized possessions was a picture of her sitting on a swing in the backyard of our house in Southern California. She is wearing the same type of one-piece bathing suit like Betty Grable did for that famous pic. She has on dark cats-eye sunglasses and her legs are in the air. She was a bombshell back in the day, had eight kids, it's no wonder my dad couldn't keep his hands off her. Sometimes you have to look at a picture like that and forget the bad times too - she could be abusive and had a temper like Krakatoa. You learn to take the good with the bad. She isn't suffering anymore, neither is Dad, and bringing it up now wouldn't accomplish anything.
I have no regrets. It's all good.
Yes, you describe it perfectly! My dad died in 2017, he had Parkinson, and also died suddenly in his sleep, peacefully. So we took a wonderful picture of him, where he smiles all over his face while being at the seaside on a sunny day, to enlarge it for the funeral and now it hangs at the wall in the home of my mother.
With Petra I fortunately also have such a picture from a happy sunny day with me with her smiling all over her face.
These pictures help a lot to focus only on the love for both of them, which will remain forever.