If you told me before 2014 that feminists would wreck my views on equality, be ostrasized by race in 2016 and by 2022 find a path towards Jesus through some "nutball" community deciphering hidden messages in our news, I would have told you you lost your mind, and probably avoid all of that being aware of what was once told to me.
But that is what happened to me. And I am looking back at everything and noticed a lot of small questions or moments brought me ever so closer to where I am now. And honestly, most of it has happened here, on GAW.
I originally thought you guys had some crazy notions, long before .win communities were a thing, then I came to realization that Trump looked... Accurate to previous "drops" you all called them. I eventually found out truths of Trump's actions and eventually moved from independent liberal to a conservative, cause I hate any abuse to children. He was protecting them hand over fist. Eventually TDW was struck down and heard GAW knew this was coming. The more I orbited you guys directly, the more I became open to what is truly happening. And I did something I never thought I'd do; review my lack of relationship with God. I started going outside at night and just, talked to the sky? I didnt know if anyone would hear it, eventually I started becoming more and more of a believer, was being shown things about the evil in this world. What it wants, what it has, just tastes. Now, I am by no means some "born-again" type, but I am working that relationship more each day, trying to kill bad habbits and replace them with more constructive ones.
Before I just kept going home, and mindlessly playing video games and lament on the lost opportunities I had when I was a college kid. In a year's time I have turned it into a gaming themed podcast with a friend and further still learned a new craft of making wing sauces and glazes. Before every recording, before every sauce cooked, I have now had a habbit of praying and thanking Jesus for the small amount of time given to give me solace and move my newfound gifts forward.
I won't be advertising any of my stuff, thats not what this is for. But today marked some small milestones for me. The FDA is ready (cause our jacked state requires it) to review my kitchen for a professional sale of my sauces and my podcast channel is seeing an oddly larger uptick (by no means its huge). Two victories that would have never been seen if I just stuck to the TV and beat my next major RPG or some crap.
And honestly, I dont think much of my personal life changed for the better during this time. But my perspectives and beliefs have, my stances have. And it's more because this community is making me see stuff in me and my world I would have never thought before. And we are truly the grassroots of this awakening process. And my works will indeed reflect this.
And to you all; Thank you guys for giving me the proper seeds to grow. I will continue to do what I can to better this country.
God has had bad press because "the whole world lies in the evil one." Look at what they did to His Son, who only helped people in life, and died, a man without sin, for Adam's race, so that God could righteously forgive us. He forgave us, so that He could come into us, into a part reserved only for Himself, the human spirit. We are just "grass," but when joined to Him we become eternal.
I grew up a "Christian," but did not become "born-again" until I was 18. I prayed as a legal matter because I didn't want to go to hell. As soon as I asked Jesus to save me, "heaven came down and glory filled my soul." That's a song, but it became my experience. And the love of God was poured out in my heart. He is searching for those who will turn their heart to Him and open to Him. He is obviously calling you. He doesn't make it difficult. Peter said, Whoever calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. Paul just said, "Who are you, Lord?" and God got in.