If you told me before 2014 that feminists would wreck my views on equality, be ostrasized by race in 2016 and by 2022 find a path towards Jesus through some "nutball" community deciphering hidden messages in our news, I would have told you you lost your mind, and probably avoid all of that being aware of what was once told to me.
But that is what happened to me. And I am looking back at everything and noticed a lot of small questions or moments brought me ever so closer to where I am now. And honestly, most of it has happened here, on GAW.
I originally thought you guys had some crazy notions, long before .win communities were a thing, then I came to realization that Trump looked... Accurate to previous "drops" you all called them. I eventually found out truths of Trump's actions and eventually moved from independent liberal to a conservative, cause I hate any abuse to children. He was protecting them hand over fist. Eventually TDW was struck down and heard GAW knew this was coming. The more I orbited you guys directly, the more I became open to what is truly happening. And I did something I never thought I'd do; review my lack of relationship with God. I started going outside at night and just, talked to the sky? I didnt know if anyone would hear it, eventually I started becoming more and more of a believer, was being shown things about the evil in this world. What it wants, what it has, just tastes. Now, I am by no means some "born-again" type, but I am working that relationship more each day, trying to kill bad habbits and replace them with more constructive ones.
Before I just kept going home, and mindlessly playing video games and lament on the lost opportunities I had when I was a college kid. In a year's time I have turned it into a gaming themed podcast with a friend and further still learned a new craft of making wing sauces and glazes. Before every recording, before every sauce cooked, I have now had a habbit of praying and thanking Jesus for the small amount of time given to give me solace and move my newfound gifts forward.
I won't be advertising any of my stuff, thats not what this is for. But today marked some small milestones for me. The FDA is ready (cause our jacked state requires it) to review my kitchen for a professional sale of my sauces and my podcast channel is seeing an oddly larger uptick (by no means its huge). Two victories that would have never been seen if I just stuck to the TV and beat my next major RPG or some crap.
And honestly, I dont think much of my personal life changed for the better during this time. But my perspectives and beliefs have, my stances have. And it's more because this community is making me see stuff in me and my world I would have never thought before. And we are truly the grassroots of this awakening process. And my works will indeed reflect this.
And to you all; Thank you guys for giving me the proper seeds to grow. I will continue to do what I can to better this country.
Thank you for the uplifting post. We all are encouraged by others in this community and their journeys of self discovery. Sounds like the Almighty has reached out to touch your soul that in turn is reaching out to Him. Continue reaching out - He will not disappoint.
If I can offer any advise, it would be to live each day with an attitude of gratitude towards Him who gives us existence. Every day is a gift from God and we should never forget that. He is there in the little things of life if we take the time to see it. His profound communication in concealment can be life changing - all while others simply pass by and never notice a thing. I am glad to hear that for you, that fog is lifting and you are able to see more clearly. Welcome to the journey fren.