If I understood you right, you're getting a divorce too? Yeesh - that sucks! I'm sorry you have to go through that.
Yeah - I have a lot of videos of WoW team meetings that show text chat of those in it - anytime the question of whether shots should be mandated or not came up in the months leading up to the eventual "yes" answer, there are so many devs who were vehemently hostile in their demands that it should be mandatory and those that didn't want to comply weren't welcome there.
I have a lot of other crap recorded too, like the hiring team I was a part of - we were reviewing applicants to join our sound team - after going through all the applications - two of the other people in that review group (4 of us total) said... "Man, I hate that it's always White Guys" and "Yeah, it sucks that it's always White Guys."
TBH - I've been through a lot of dealing with the feelings of Vengeance in all of this. I follow the Bible and from that, I understand I should not be operating in Vengeance. This whole experience, as I'm sure you know yourself, has thrown me a lot of Anger related challenges, lol...
So - I'm not sure how to reconcile all that dirt I have with the fact that I need to be careful to avoid operating in a vengeful spirit...
Not easy!!
I understand your battle, PresElect. Good to cross paths with you.
oh, i mean divorce my company. they were going to manage me out. so rather than fight it, i agreed to the “divorce”.
thankfully my spouse is an amazing person who is exactly on the same page as me. and 100% supportive of the decision to walk away.
this whole experience has made me very angry. what you say about vengeance strikes a chord with me. i choose to walk away because i didn’t like the person i was becoming. no amount of compensation is worth the erosion that was happening to my character.
i think the path forward will be made easy, and clear for you, if that is the right path.
i prayed for guidance. because everyone thought this job was the brass ring of all jobs. but the woke madness was seeping into every interaction. and the pressure to hire based on color, not merit, is repugnant to my core beliefs. the company values were just flaccid words used to sell more trinkets. i could not help but push back. they made it difficult for me to continue by throwing impossible tasks my way to complete. at some point, i realized my ego and pride were driving me. and for what purpose? there is nothing honorable in that place. so, i made the deal and am walking away.
i’m sorry that all this happened to you. good people are getting squeezed out of high tech. but i think there is something better out there.
it’s most excellent to connect with another who understands the battle and has walked what sounds like a very similar path. channel that anger good dwarf, in the end god wins.
"thankfully my spouse is an amazing person who is exactly on the same page as me. and 100% supportive of the decision to walk away."
That is excellent to hear! Same here with my wife. This whole experience has actually made us closer in a lot of ways - that fox hole buddy sort of thing.
What a journey you are able to tell from your experiences.
On the other side of this, I am really hoping we can use our experiences to help others understand that these "brass rings of all jobs" are not worth the elevation of idols that we tend to put them in. That was a large part of the journey for me. I went into this career field 10 years ago, specifically to obtain the job I ended up at. Very thankful for the experience on that journey - but I also let it become an idol.
In the last few days before talking to my team about my shot choice (which as you know, was basically signing my death warrant in that environment, Lol!) - I had to become honest and see that I held that job in "idol" status.
I surrendered it to God and surrendered the outcome to His wisdom and will.
I have to say - as painful as that end was - everything following has been absolutely awesome.
New job lets us live by our fam back in WI - I make significantly more then I did at Blizzard - and I never had to search for a new job - I had 5 to choose from almost immediately from the co-workers that knew I got screwed over.
And my life is re-oriented in a way that I haven't experienced since 10+ years ago when I started down that path of hyper-focusing on achieving that job at Blizz.
There's a lot more good news in that journey - but that is for another time. ;)
Amazing friend. I could not agree more. My soon to be former company has a cult like following. that should have been the first red flag. but it was hard to say no. we even moved back to california after fleeing more than a decade ago. even the most skeptical of us can convince ourselves the siren songs will not lead to our demise.
that place is truly cancer upon this earth.
i am excited about the future. and i have zero idea where we go next. putting 100% faith in god, and am going to surrender to his will. i will finish my dance with the devil and exit like a professional.
going to enjoy CHRISTmas with family, and not like a bloody heathen. So Merry Christmas, fren. And happy holidays to all the people of faith out there.
I salute you in your battle.
If I understood you right, you're getting a divorce too? Yeesh - that sucks! I'm sorry you have to go through that.
Yeah - I have a lot of videos of WoW team meetings that show text chat of those in it - anytime the question of whether shots should be mandated or not came up in the months leading up to the eventual "yes" answer, there are so many devs who were vehemently hostile in their demands that it should be mandatory and those that didn't want to comply weren't welcome there.
I have a lot of other crap recorded too, like the hiring team I was a part of - we were reviewing applicants to join our sound team - after going through all the applications - two of the other people in that review group (4 of us total) said... "Man, I hate that it's always White Guys" and "Yeah, it sucks that it's always White Guys."
TBH - I've been through a lot of dealing with the feelings of Vengeance in all of this. I follow the Bible and from that, I understand I should not be operating in Vengeance. This whole experience, as I'm sure you know yourself, has thrown me a lot of Anger related challenges, lol...
So - I'm not sure how to reconcile all that dirt I have with the fact that I need to be careful to avoid operating in a vengeful spirit...
Not easy!!
I understand your battle, PresElect. Good to cross paths with you.
oh, i mean divorce my company. they were going to manage me out. so rather than fight it, i agreed to the “divorce”.
thankfully my spouse is an amazing person who is exactly on the same page as me. and 100% supportive of the decision to walk away.
this whole experience has made me very angry. what you say about vengeance strikes a chord with me. i choose to walk away because i didn’t like the person i was becoming. no amount of compensation is worth the erosion that was happening to my character.
i think the path forward will be made easy, and clear for you, if that is the right path.
i prayed for guidance. because everyone thought this job was the brass ring of all jobs. but the woke madness was seeping into every interaction. and the pressure to hire based on color, not merit, is repugnant to my core beliefs. the company values were just flaccid words used to sell more trinkets. i could not help but push back. they made it difficult for me to continue by throwing impossible tasks my way to complete. at some point, i realized my ego and pride were driving me. and for what purpose? there is nothing honorable in that place. so, i made the deal and am walking away.
i’m sorry that all this happened to you. good people are getting squeezed out of high tech. but i think there is something better out there.
it’s most excellent to connect with another who understands the battle and has walked what sounds like a very similar path. channel that anger good dwarf, in the end god wins.
"thankfully my spouse is an amazing person who is exactly on the same page as me. and 100% supportive of the decision to walk away."
That is excellent to hear! Same here with my wife. This whole experience has actually made us closer in a lot of ways - that fox hole buddy sort of thing.
What a journey you are able to tell from your experiences.
On the other side of this, I am really hoping we can use our experiences to help others understand that these "brass rings of all jobs" are not worth the elevation of idols that we tend to put them in. That was a large part of the journey for me. I went into this career field 10 years ago, specifically to obtain the job I ended up at. Very thankful for the experience on that journey - but I also let it become an idol.
In the last few days before talking to my team about my shot choice (which as you know, was basically signing my death warrant in that environment, Lol!) - I had to become honest and see that I held that job in "idol" status.
I surrendered it to God and surrendered the outcome to His wisdom and will.
I have to say - as painful as that end was - everything following has been absolutely awesome.
New job lets us live by our fam back in WI - I make significantly more then I did at Blizzard - and I never had to search for a new job - I had 5 to choose from almost immediately from the co-workers that knew I got screwed over.
And my life is re-oriented in a way that I haven't experienced since 10+ years ago when I started down that path of hyper-focusing on achieving that job at Blizz.
There's a lot more good news in that journey - but that is for another time. ;)
In the end, GOD WINS!
Amazing friend. I could not agree more. My soon to be former company has a cult like following. that should have been the first red flag. but it was hard to say no. we even moved back to california after fleeing more than a decade ago. even the most skeptical of us can convince ourselves the siren songs will not lead to our demise.
that place is truly cancer upon this earth.
i am excited about the future. and i have zero idea where we go next. putting 100% faith in god, and am going to surrender to his will. i will finish my dance with the devil and exit like a professional.
going to enjoy CHRISTmas with family, and not like a bloody heathen. So Merry Christmas, fren. And happy holidays to all the people of faith out there.
<3 Glad to cross paths! Merry Christmas to you :)
I don’t think you’ll be vengeful. You sound at peace and calm. You’re just exposing the truth. Not being vengeful.
It depends on the day, lol. Talking to you all here, it's easy to feel safe and in good company.
In the rest of the world, especially when dealing with that crowd directly - it's easily to feel like an embattled soldier and get a bit spikey.
The only way I'll be able to walk that line is by letting God draw it and following that. If I do it - I will fail, for sure, lol.
I'm appreciative for the company here and ability to share - it's cathartic and helps in that bigger struggle.