Thank you. I pray daily that God will will bring those dear to me back to Him. I was especially heartbroken over the dear girl I used to date. We not only went to church together, but to the same community college too. She was in nursing while I was doing business. She was a vegetarian though, and later I discovered she was anorexic. That was enough to put the brakes on for me, but she was still dear to me. Then I lost track of her when I first moved to Japan in 2000, got married, then we lived in Arizona for nearly 10 years. During that time, my dad saw her working at a hospital during one of the many times my mom was hospitalized. She told my dad that she'd been in a rotten relationship which involved domestic violence. I wanted to go to the hospital then but my dad talked me out of it. Then last month this girl's dad confirmed what happened. I figured she had improved herself from that situation, but she's only become an atheist now. It's hurt my soul so much to think that if only I had married her, I could have saved her from such torment and she'd still be in a good relationship with both God and her parents. But if I were to have done so, I would have abandoned a precious girl in Japan who was a brand new Christian, thanks to me. Plus I would have had to abandon the calling God placed in my heart since high school to work in Japan. But God moves us with conviction. Guilt and condemnation is from Satan. This girl I loved made the decision to shack up with an alcoholic drug addict who turned out violent. I can claim responsibility for breaking her heart as much as I tried to avoid doing so, but she made the decision to pursue guys who were the opposite of me. At least she thought enough of me to give her dad my contact info, and now I shoulder the burden of praying for his family daily. All I can do is pray for her, since she has not tried to contact me herself. I wish I could do more than this. She has a daughter the same age as my own. I wish I could reconnect and resolve any negative energy that there may be in the connection we had together from 23+ years ago. I didn't marry her, but I loved her enough to not pursue her heart because I lacked the confidence and maturity to overcome her eating disorders.
Thank you. I pray daily that God will will bring those dear to me back to Him. I was especially heartbroken over the dear girl I used to date. We not only went to church together, but to the same community college too. She was in nursing while I was doing business. She was a vegetarian though, and later I discovered she was anorexic. That was enough to put the brakes on for me, but she was still dear to me. Then I lost track of her when I first moved to Japan in 2000, got married, then we lived in Arizona for nearly 10 years. During that time, my dad saw her working at a hospital during one of the many times my mom was hospitalized. She told my dad that she'd been in a rotten relationship which involved domestic violence. I wanted to go to the hospital then but my dad talked me out of it. Then last month this girl's dad confirmed what happened. I figured she had improved herself from that situation, but she's only become an atheist now. It's hurt my soul so much to think that if only I had married her, I could have saved her from such torment and she'd still be in a good relationship with both God and her parents. But if I were to have done so, I would have abandoned a precious girl in Japan who was a brand new Christian, thanks to me. Plus I would have had to abandon the calling God placed in my heart since high school to work in Japan. But God moves us with conviction. Guilt and condemnation is from Satan. This girl I loved made the decision to shack up with an alcoholic drug addict who turned out violent. I can claim responsibility for breaking her heart as much as I tried to avoid doing so, but she made the decision to pursue guys who were the opposite of me. At least she thought enough of me to give her dad my contact info, and now I shoulder the burden of praying for his family daily. All I can do is pray for her, since she has not tried to contact me herself. I wish I could do more than this. She has a daughter the same age as my own. I wish I could reconnect and resolve any negative energy that there may be in the connection we had together from 23+ years ago. I didn't marry her, but I loved her enough to not pursue her heart because I lacked the confidence and maturity to overcome her eating disorders.