I feel like it’s tearing me apart. I mean, apparently I chose this, we all did, but what the fuck. The evil and the cruelty is so overwhelming in all areas, I feel like I’m drowning at times. At the same time, I feel like I am gaining knowledge faster and in areas I’ve never even known about before. My mind is opening an expanding, I’m aware of so much more, and this includes both positive and negative aspects. There is definitely growth, huge growth, but it has been extremely hard and painful and relentless to experience and has broken me multiple times.
Absolutely, the war between good and evil is pulling us beyond the limitations of our personal preoccupations. This is our advancement.
I feel like it’s tearing me apart. I mean, apparently I chose this, we all did, but what the fuck. The evil and the cruelty is so overwhelming in all areas, I feel like I’m drowning at times. At the same time, I feel like I am gaining knowledge faster and in areas I’ve never even known about before. My mind is opening an expanding, I’m aware of so much more, and this includes both positive and negative aspects. There is definitely growth, huge growth, but it has been extremely hard and painful and relentless to experience and has broken me multiple times.
Lots of us are on this difficult journey with you. It does seem like we choose this ride, and it's tempering us for something better.
Ecclesiastes 1:18 KJV [18] For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
Just know…God wins.