Sadly all of those things is true for me. Well apart from making some kind of discovery in my heart about the Lord. And yes, this discovery has brought be some comfort and peace.

The root of this discovery is the revelation of how utter and how widespread the evil on Earth is right now. My logic is that if the evil can be this implacable and total, then there has to be a God as there is balance in all things. And he must be so mighty indeed to be able to balance out the evil that permeates and pollutes everywhere in this world.