My wife just rushed to hospital, resting heart rate at 130, red skin, out of breath, misremembering things and stumbling. We’re both unvaxxed and under 35. I’m home watching our son, trying not to freak the fuck out! Any prayers or words of comfort are appreciated; this woman is my entire world, I’m scared shitless and don’t know what to do and have no where else to turn….I just want help. We’ve tried so hard to push through all the bullshit but now this happens—I’m so close to breaking frens, help me please.
Update: still in hospital. CTs, MRI, EKG, US all negative for any clots or embolisms. Doctors still aren’t sure what’s causing it- best working guess so far is POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome) which is an excessively reduced amount of blood returning to the heart when moving from laying to sitting to standing. BP and heart rate still spiking anytime she has to get up. Pumping fluids and electrolytes and looking into starting a beta blocker until her OBGYN can assess hormone levels. Heart monitor hooked up for next cpl weeks. Home/bed rest until then. Not a whole lot of info or treatment for it so we just have to wait and see for now.
You ARE worthy, you were included in the list of people He died for, willingly, as a plan, and He already knew everything you would do. He WANTS you to turn to Him so it will be worth the sacrifice.
I hope you’re right. I swear I’ll turn my soul around and open my heart to Him, I just want her to be ok. I’ve been so confused, angry, lost and bitter for so long, but the one constant that has kept me grounded in goodness, for the sake of goodness, has been HER. Our family is everything to me, and im not strong enough to carry on in this bullshit without her.
This is exactly why you need a strong friend, the strongest, and if you can work out your own problems it will be the best thing you can do for your wife in the long run. Maybe the short run too. I think the prayer you are looking for is "help, help, help," without conditions. It's a valid prayer, has often worked for me. Praying for your peace.
All of you frens have given me more strength than you realize. I did, I prayed with everything I have and by the end, that’s all it was: help, help, help. I have a sense of calm slowly coming over me but don’t know if that’s just bc I’m cried out and emotions are fried, but I’m going to meditate on it and pray more until I hear more news. Thank you fren, from the bottom of my heart.
I'm glad to hear that. I'm sure we all prayed that God cloaks you in His peace. As terrifying as it all is, please try to remember Romans 8:28. "All " things work to good for those who love the Lord. All things. We might not see the good in the immediate moment, but we will eventually. Blessings to you, fren.