Fren,

In 2020 and early 2021, I visited my mother regularly and spoke to her about a lot of the things that have been happening, attempting to wake her up, as it were, to the reality about what is/was going on, including the fact that the Media world was not sharing real and relevant information about the so-called pandemic and the measures that were very forcibly put in place (where I live, the most locked-down place in the world, literally), etc. Week after week, sharing and sharing, and then the injections came out, and I talked to her a lot about them.

It all came to a head when after weeks of talking about the injections, and her saying she would at least ask certain questions of her doctor before making a decision, she phoned me one afternoon and sai, oh, I got the [injection] today, and I wanted to let you know, because I know you are against it. Click. Goodbye.

It triggered an existential crisis in me, because for all these years, I had told myself that my mother was actually listening to me, whereas in fact, she was not, and she has a powerful disposition since childhood to block out difficult or unpalatable information or thoughts.

The situation brought up some very powerful feelings for me, and I didn't speak to her for almost a year, after having seen her at least once every two weeks and normally one week, for years and years.

Nowadays, I don't blame her for that, and I've come to accept her as she is, but it was difficult to process the feelings, which included feeling like she was actually being immoral by not facing or accepting certain realities, and thereby actually adding to them or upholding them.

But this entire process was actually about me, and me coming to understand both myself, and her, and learning to accept her and love her without certain roadblocks in my heart.

I share this, because your recounting of "No interest in a meaningful pursuit of truth. No interest in understanding/distinguishing worldviews, ..." on the part of your mother recalls my own experience so closely.

We are called in this era to be a source of truth but also a source of love. Many of our elders, and indeed our peers and even the younger generation, are not capable of rising to the levels of commitment we have to truth and the future. And, its painful when those close to us who we care for make choices that we know ultimately are a hindrance to the world waking up.

But we are called to be both beacons of truth AND sources of love, and in my experience, that involves us learning to widen and expand not only our minds, but also our hearts, to embrace those that cannot, or will not, make the choices we have.

Living in this way and making such a choice means we are ultimately opening up the path for humanity today and humanity in the future. Moreover, we are creating the foundations so that those in the past, when the time is right, will also be able to participate on the future that awaits humanity, with God.

This is the path of sainthood, and the challenges we experience internally, confronted with a world or a society or family that cannot make the best choices, when we meet those challenges and rise above ourselves, this is the same journey that he who walked the earth 2000 years ago went on, even if our own path in tiny in comparison.

When we do this we walk in the best of company, and God will bless the world for our sake, because we mirror he who has loved all mankind.

My thoughts, anyway...