I am a recovering alcoholic, and I would go on the wagon, yet to resume once more, I did that dance up until 38, and then went to AA. For me, it was not so much the frequency or amount, it was the craving for more after the first one. When I would try to control it, like just have one or two, the mental obsession was there, thinking about if I could have another, "if I just do it slowly" or "let me eat something and then have more", eventually I would give in, especially after the 3rd, when my defenses were loosened, and then, it could go anywhere, and too often that anywhere was a black out. Yes, it runs in my family, functional alcoholics, no craziness at home, no lose of employment, respectful and living for that drink when you got home from work, or, drinking at home after a party that you have already had enough, not being able to handle emotional pain while sober. Those are the symptoms.
I am a recovering alcoholic, and I would go on the wagon, yet to resume once more, I did that dance up until 38, and then went to AA. For me, it was not so much the frequency or amount, it was the craving for more after the first one. When I would try to control it, like just have one or two, the mental obsession was there, thinking about if I could have another, "if I just do it slowly" or "let me eat something and then have more", eventually I would give in, especially after the 3rd, when my defenses were loosened, and then, it could go anywhere, and too often that anywhere was a black out. Yes, it runs in my family, functional alcoholics, no craziness at home, no lose of employment, respectful and living for that drink when you got home from work, or, drinking at home after a party that you have already had enough, not being able to handle emotional pain while sober. Those are the symptoms.