A few years ago I would be commiserating with you but I think I made it past that stage. I went through a very low place in life and I had nobody to lean on except my wife who didn't really get what I was going through so I basically went through it alone and I'll admit alcohol played a huge part in getting through it.
Nothing in my life has changed since then but I'm feeling much better because I asked myself one day what I really want out of life. Let's say for example that they did round everybody up and put us in camps and executed us without us ever knowing what happened to our families. If I were to have my head locked in a guillotine what would I wish for at that moment? I would wish for things to be exactly as they are now.
Do I have a safe place to call home? A roof over my head? A refrigerator to keep food? Running water? A safe place to keep my unnecessary stuff? Can I take a shower any time I want? Can I wash my clothes? Is my family with me?
I am living better than most people who have ever lived.
Life is great.
We are all going through something but let's be realistic...if this is the worst your life will ever get, can you handle it?
My whole life seems like it's been full of trials but I guess everyone has the same story.
I think the saddest issue for me right now is how dead i am inside. Ive gone through so much bullshit in this life I'm just done. I'm over relationships, I don't want to implode anyone else's life. My future right now is moving back to Philly to be with family that I left 20 years ago. I wish I could talk my wife into moving with me.
Those meds are pushing you to the dead space, and you need your wifey. You chose each other and must stick with each other, so if that means hanging back with her until things are right, do what you gotta do. Maybe she can come with you for a time to try it out but if it's not right for both of you, it's not right for you. Positive stance, do the best for you two.
A few years ago I would be commiserating with you but I think I made it past that stage. I went through a very low place in life and I had nobody to lean on except my wife who didn't really get what I was going through so I basically went through it alone and I'll admit alcohol played a huge part in getting through it.
Nothing in my life has changed since then but I'm feeling much better because I asked myself one day what I really want out of life. Let's say for example that they did round everybody up and put us in camps and executed us without us ever knowing what happened to our families. If I were to have my head locked in a guillotine what would I wish for at that moment? I would wish for things to be exactly as they are now.
Do I have a safe place to call home? A roof over my head? A refrigerator to keep food? Running water? A safe place to keep my unnecessary stuff? Can I take a shower any time I want? Can I wash my clothes? Is my family with me?
I am living better than most people who have ever lived.
Life is great.
We are all going through something but let's be realistic...if this is the worst your life will ever get, can you handle it?
My whole life seems like it's been full of trials but I guess everyone has the same story.
I think the saddest issue for me right now is how dead i am inside. Ive gone through so much bullshit in this life I'm just done. I'm over relationships, I don't want to implode anyone else's life. My future right now is moving back to Philly to be with family that I left 20 years ago. I wish I could talk my wife into moving with me.
Sorry I'm all over the place right now.
Those meds are pushing you to the dead space, and you need your wifey. You chose each other and must stick with each other, so if that means hanging back with her until things are right, do what you gotta do. Maybe she can come with you for a time to try it out but if it's not right for both of you, it's not right for you. Positive stance, do the best for you two.