I'm somewhat there also. I do see benefit to some effect, it's hard to distinguish what is good and what is harmful sometimes. Adam thought it was just an apple after all. I do believe the jab had some occult foundations however. No matter what though we are all children of God. I believe even if I was under the influence of anything that God would still protect Me, unless a lesson came along I needed to learn. God allows us to experience and learn, it's the Devil that takes advantage of our weaknesses. Whether alien or demon at least we understand there is such things.

Carry On!!!