I’m glad you have Jesus in your life. That’s awesome. But that’s why I’m saying you need to seek out more about God in the Bible. You have questions. Now don’t expect your every questioned to be answered. And esp not answered how you want them to be. Your just confused on some issues. There’s nothing wrong with that. I was greatly confused a few years ago myself. We seek knowledge of God. That’s a good thing. But be careful of what I call spiritual pride. I’ve learned that recently through my lessons. It’s a state of “your all knowing” in a way. You’ve shut out any other knowledge except that which you have gained outside of the Bible. We may have misinterpreted something. Or see differently. Because we don’t know. We think we know. Some of your thoughts on scripture and the Bible itself is something I’ve never seen. And I hope you receive any answers to questions you have.