Welcome to General Chat - GAW Community Area
This General Chat area started off as a place for people to talk about things that are off topic, however it has quickly evolved into a community and has become an integral part of the GAW experience for many of us.
Based on its evolving needs and plenty of user feedback, we are trying to bring some order and institute some rules. Please make sure you read these rules and participate in the spirit of this community.
Rules for General Chat
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Be respectful to each other. This is of utmost importance, and comments may be removed if deemed not respectful.
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Avoid long drawn out arguments. This should be a place to relax, not to waste your time needlessly.
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Personal anecdotes, puzzles, cute pics/clips - everything welcome
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Please do not spam at the top level. If you have a lot to post each day, try and post them all together in one top level comment
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Try keep things light. If you are bringing in deep stuff, try not to go overboard.
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Things that are clearly on-topic for this board should be posted as a separate post and not here (except if you are new and still getting the feel of this place)
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If you find people violating these rules, deport them rather than start a argument here.
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Feel free to give feedback as these rules are expected to keep evoloving
In short, imagine this thread to be a local community hall where we all gather and chat daily. Please be respectful to others in the same way
I don’t know it it’s satanic or just life’s ups and downs. I’m so blessed with my little family (hubby, daughter, sil & grandbaby). On the other hand the past three years I’ve struggled physically and maybe a little bit mentally. I know it wasn’t severe depression because I’ve been through that ten years, for months only got out of bed to eat and go to bathroom, grief from the loss of a grandparent. 3-4 years ago is when I found out about the lies, satanic rituals and child trafficking. I became obsessed coming here to learn everything I could. That’s how I am, I want to know what’s going on, good or bad I don’t want to be in the dark. Just like others here I lost respect for so many people I’ve known forever and those I don’t know. It’s been very hard to deal with it all knowing we don’t have control of it. I trust God is in control and one day the evil ones will be taken care of. So, I don’t think true depression but learning I don’t live in the wonderful world I thought I did. On another subject I have been telling doctors for three years something physically was wrong with me. You know how dr’s are. Last February I found out what was wrong and almost died. It’s a long story and want tell all here because most here have heard about it. (Septic shock from kidney stone blocking urethra & enlarged appendix. 3 nights in ICU saving my life and weeks later surgeries for both issues.) I basically went into a shell (didn’t want to be around stupid people) in 2020 and it got worse. I was already overweight and it got worse, self sabotage. I’m a Christian, I know Jesus is my savior but have been absent from church and bible reading, just slack.
over the past year I’ve felt a pull to get closer with God, desiring a relationship and learning scripture
Since then seems like every time I make positive changes for my life I end up physically one step back. I posted here a few months ago I felt like the devil is on my back hoping I fail. Got good positive feedback from so many nice people. Just another reminder the devil can try but he won’t win.
I’ve been digging into the elite families, child hunting parties and trafficking in the past week. I saw a post here about it and started searching on Yandex (lots of websites with survivors stories). My sleep had finally gotten really good for a life long insomniac. The past week it’s been awful waking up every few hours. So now I’m conflicted do I keep researching?! Not because I’m giving in the devil because I don’t know how much I can stand to know. I’ve known about this stuff several years and I’m ashamed to admit it took having a grand baby for me to understand it. I can’t imagine harming someone so small and innocent that can’t fight back.
I feel like I’m beating the devil little by little. I’m turning my desire to learn around and focusing on biblical education. I have been listening to biblical education videos, local sermons online and on YouTube. Hopefully I’ll be able to get to the physical bible soon. My attention span is awful. I’m getting better doing daily prayer. I’ve also committed to a better eating plan and have been losing weight.
As usual I over share but hopefully my big mouth and what I’ve been through will help someone else that’s struggling. Yes, I feel like evil is trying to take me down but I’m fighting it every day.