Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I do not have a specific reply for your questions/comments, but I wanted to say I support you and I am grateful you are willing to be vulnerable and share your story.

There are likely many silent readers that appreciate your willingness to open up but they are too shy to say anything, they are new, or they prefer to keep their personal experiences private. So here is a big thank you for those who want to say it too, but they are silent. Perhaps they will anonymously upvote instead.